spreadyourlovetoall

2006-08-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

been reading a book my fren lent me named : secrets of the millionaire mind-think rich n get rich =)

well i seriously recommend this book and its HIGHLY coz it changes your very own perspective outlook towards your very own life and help u rid of negative "stuff" hidden within one unknowingly

initially i tot hey this book gonna get me "rich" and it truly got me RICH instant by empowering my knowledge and rectifiying negative spots within myself =)

been long since i felt this zen within me like a reborn awaiting to adopt the positive forces

shall update here what've i learnt to share with all my frens =)

cheerz

2006-08-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

is a change of career good???
been pondering which field of profession should i swop to for past 3 mths..would one prefer to stay at a cosy job with fixed pay or opt for a more challenging job that offer more lucrative pay???

lately bumped into 3 person who changed my perspective about career..its not juz bot job satisfaction but pay does play a big part for motivation for all working human =)
those 3 person i've mentioned early was from the same field not me but from the shipping line=)

that doesnt mean i will hop over without much serious consideration due to fact i got the passion in real estate industry but not what i'm currently doing (maybe estate investment or reit ba if i do hop to another field unrelated to building industry)

it takes great courage for i got no knowledge nor the cert the prove my quality but fortunately i've got the negotiating skills and pr skills =)

await my break thru news or it could be delayed for moment till i manage to lay my new path

for all friends enjoying what they sowing in their job congrats and enjoy the great moments pal

2006-08-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

been ages since i last blogged

finally i found my direction in life and thanks to few close fren im able to unleash the hidden power from within =)

special thanks to ying yu and mingfa

life is an enjoyment for nw i forget ytd pain if any , enjoy today work or play and plan for 2mr thats hw i live by my life nw =p not forgetting the special project from within im building up everyday...

empowering my innerself thru knowledge by reading donald trumps thk like billionaire and thk rich get rich and strengthening of my emotional quality to give me the edge above all =p

lets us all work towards our goal may all my frenz succeed in what every u do dun give uo so easily eh

take care pals

2006-07-10T16:57:00.000+08:00

primary 6 yr 1994...i was bot to head to sch..getting all prepared juz happened to switch on the tv to see a penalty shoot out between italy and brazil...naturally i rooted for "ünder dog" italy...it was so damn exciting to see the roulette going on....nw's baggio's turn to take the spot kick.....and he ballons it over the bar.....awwwwwww will nvr forget hw bitterly baggio teared losing the final thru his own legs..the dejection...it muz have felt like world apart as hw trezegeut felt this morning at 4 plus am......

thatz hw i come to support italy 12 yrs back..been waiting in vain for their worldcup..coincidentally i was born 1982 last time they won a world cup =p lols

finally after 12 long yr of waiting they ended my agony seeing them bow out to france in final of euro 2004 and crushing out to korean dramas in 2002 =)

all i wish to say to ITALY is GRACIE AZZURIES for fulfilling my dreams
not forgetting our belove maestro mr ZIZOU thou he bows out with reds but no one can DENY HIM all his credits =)

cheers for all who won and those who lost there's always another chance =)

2006-06-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

BON VOYAGE tan cheng..he's a poly class mate i knw since yr 2..a gd fren with a gd business mind =) he's from china and after 6 long yr of staying here and getting his PR status..its time to go back home where family is for him in china...days we exchanged notes and study together..playing soccer together..going to see him off at airport today sat 4am...sad to see him go back china is where home is for him....
thru him i realise no matter hw old we grow how far we are away from home..end of day there's no place like home..there will always be a time for us to go home...
tan cheng thou u may not be able to see this post but i will personally be present to see u off brother!!!
the wishes i shall leave it later on when i see ya =)
my fighting fish has bred ler =p nw im officially a grand dad to over 40 baby fighting fish =p hehehe
take care all my frens no matter which part of singapore or world u may be at...hope u remember once in your life there's a fren u knw named mike =)

2006-05-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

well been ages since i last blog =p lols
me been busy acquiring fighting fish for breeding purpose =p
well so far i got my 1st batch of cream gold fry born on 21st may =p
second offspring of platinum gold plus red gold juz spawned today =p
nw preparing 2 more pair of fishy to spawn and 2 more pair incoming soon from my frens =p
life getting busier taking care of my fishes lols...works going well and love life just as plain as ever =p
juz wish everyone is doing well and is free from the flu bug
take care my frens

2006-04-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

been real long since i last blogged lor =p lols
settling well in my 1st career with the differences sorted out for a smoother future with my company =)
morever i found a new meaning in life as in my current goal at hand is to maximise my earnings so next year i can go study part time degree course =p
13may coming (my birthday) up so will be going to oversea to celebrate my birthday yeah =)
refound my all time fav my dearest soccer with a new bunch of khaki down at jurong west zone =p
everything is nicely in place except for that one special lady in my life =p
i leaving it to fate ler lar...
nw very content with my current life =)

2006-04-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

today i was very happy for i manage to help my bahya(brother in bangladesh) to stay with us..he is the most hardworking cleaner from his company..me being the property management officer of yew tee shopping centre exerted my power as the managing agent for HDB to liase with his boss to allow him to stay and get the new guy to go else where...

im nothing but a sentimental fella who treasures even working relations with people..thou im been here only for 1 mth plus..mr raja(the security guard)..malai uncle indian uncle and bahya(all cleaners) are like my "family"members..working hand in hand to ensure Yew Tee shopping centre is in good condition..i wouldnt want anybody to leave so fast when i finally made up my mind to stay on for at least 1 year...

thus i vowed to fight for the rights of my "family memebers" with my powers i have =) making Yew Tee SC a nice place for shoppers to shop at and great working place my brothers will always look forward to going to work at =p cheerz

2006-03-28T10:21:00.000+08:00

lifes too short to be affcted by idiotic morons or unhappy issues..people may say its easier said than done but it could be done couldnt it right?even im still mastering how to resolve such issue amicably. =p just smile at them and go away wahahaha..this action tend to infuriates those morons =p heeheehee and it will make you look cool man =)

work place in place now..now the time to start to plan for other stuff in my life like my social life activities etc..yesh finally after 4 weekend of OTs now i can finaly have a breather =p

wish all my frens a happy week ahead =) cheerz to all my amigos

2006-03-28T00:04:00.000+08:00

when things dun get going..u get it going lor..thats wad i did with my job..facing tons of frustration when things cant get going coz one is not getting the required support..colleague leaving one after another coz of no support..made me tender in my resignation too...thus when my manager call to request me to stay..i told him that unless the problem is not resolved many more colleague will quit soon..its a 1st obstacle cleared..
i decided to stay coz my new colleague happens to my poly good fren mr david!!!hw great can it be right..when 2 good frens fight along side by side..nw ive addressed the problem to be recitified..everything is nw in place...time to show our true potential!!!!!cheers as life is getting better with each passing day

2006-03-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

the sun is bright as the wind blows..the ball got rolling and the sweat drip across..the huff and puff got me renergized yet again..had a gd game of 3 on 3 basketball =) life still goes on with each breathe i take...life juz too short to be sad..frenz remember 1 day of unhappiness equals to 1 day lesser for happiness =) cheerz!!!

2006-03-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

when the dust settles...when the crowds gone..when the lights are off...when the silence is so deafening..
when the sky is grey and the sun is cold..for a moment i pondered and realise alot of things bot myself...
sadness is what i feel..trying to put on a brave front to show others im ok and fine..but deep down inside
im not...i tried my best but i failed..

2006-03-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

when things dun go well it takes some strength and courage to go on even stronger..as the golden saying when the going gets tough the tough gets going =) its true im not handling my personal stuff well..im trying too hard to learn everything from my job as my colleague leaving soon i'll be alone and gotta coach the new guy also and this builds up the unknown stress within trying too hard to impress everyone at work...unfairly my gf suffered my nonsensical rantings..baobei i just wish to say im truly sorry that u have to go thru this shit with me =( please forgive me...life too short to live with regrets thus i will ensure and make sure all will go smoothly..most important is not to multi task too much stuff when one cant handle so much..work has got the better of me greatly this time wrong..but who to blame???no one but myself for the way i handle stuff..hope to learn more in future and be more patient n easy =) jia u everybody!!! IM TRULY SORRY BAOBEI

2006-03-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

how many times does one get to fulfill ur aspiration???only those lucky ones with financial support gets it..i cant blame my parents for not being able to support me for further studies after poly..but i HATE it when i wanted so much to get a career path i wan but due to lack of money i cant go study...money is the issue again here...just like what i chatted with my colleague earlier..in singapore money=power...ive been rich when young (dad owns a renovation firm) but drop to dead poor (dad business failed? till go work wallet zero cents for 1 whole week...my decision to work nw even if got chance to study full time so i wont have to be poor again...but once amassed enuff money i study part time night course...for my designer aka art aspiration..thk most prob i will pursue it as a form of hobby leisure liao lor =)

2006-03-01T09:50:00.000+08:00

today blog about aspirations....ive been stubborn and wanted to do it may way as since young my mum is very controlling..must get home for dinner when i m in sec 4..gosh..i wanted to be so many things in life that i lost my direction for my career choice..i wasted 2 mth time trying out marketing n events mgmt job..till i got no choice but head back to property line which i studied in poly times...quite sad thou coz i love art n craetive stuff alot de..but nvrmind will do it leisurely and when i acquire the necessary computer skills i'll be a freelance designer =p hehehe nw is the stage where my career just kick start thus staying optimistic and cheerful is the key to prevent and avoid unhappiness and disatisfaction in work =) to everyone whom i knw lets GAMBATEH !!!!!

2006-02-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

lols when things hit ur head twice becoz of pure coincidental how you feel?=p well coz it happened to me today i actualli planned to give my baobei surprise by buying sun kuai for her then "plant" myself somewhere to spring a surprise de..but becoz i scared she may go out with her colleagues instead of heading home route thus i let her knw thru msn ler =p but i was too dumb to forget that few day ago we just had some sun kuai =p oopz...hehehe..the route home for my baobei from train station is quiet n dark thus i decide to go there wait for my laopo to accompany her home...my sweetheart's safety is my upmost concern!!! then dumb me bought coconut drink and baobei had it for lunch ler wahahaha..i drink it myself lor =p lols..baobei's new hairstyle very nice wor look so refreshing =)

2006-02-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

SWEETHEART!!! she's the best!!! todays's hint i catch no ball at all..durian allergy lar dinner thingy lar...and out of the blue while i was in the midst of doing my final stuff ard 7plus pm closing to 8 pm...boabei popped out of the door...i was so stunned!!!dunnoe hw to react at all(baobei mention i like nthg =p ..sorry baobei its the after effect after sometime later then i will grin from time to time to myself de =p)...in my whole life no one has been as caring and sweet and smart as my baobei..thus wat she did for me today will leave a very deep mark HOW GREAT A GIRLFRIEND N WIFE SHE IS!!!!!!i was like so touched lor hehehehe =p bleah..she's just my little princess and baobei =) always love u forever MUACKS

2006-02-26T23:48:00.000+08:00

Woooohoooooo..darling karen is mine!!!aka my baobei aka my little princess =p hehehe..well we finally got together ler..it all happened on 24th february ard 12am to 115am lols..baobei she really tested my wits and intellectual by giving me hints here n there to guess wat her answer would be ( i ask her to be my darling =p)..i caught few cats n let off nearly all..luckily im smart n witty enuff to get all the cats within 1 hr ohew =p..if not no todays blog liao lor hehehe...
Darling baobei she;s such a cheeky n naughty girl like to tickly me so much de...hehehe =p bleah i enjoy it alot coz i see my baobei enjoying herself also =p bleah...the timing,location n people was exactly so right...
Nw i truly believe in the theory of day time,ground inside and human together (translate in chinese) is vital n important for love,work and many other stuff to go smooth n good de!!!!!
Today is also 1st day baobei come to my house =p hehehehe...darling i love u lots muacks muacks muacks..i love looking at you when u are looking @ tv or surfing net..looking at ur big sparkling eyes fixed on the screen..and your lovely eye lashes...and ur little dotty on ur right cheek that make u look so sexy =p hehehe..ya such a babelicious baobei i ever got that i can help but just stare blindly at you at every moment =p hehehe...MOST IMPORTANT IS YOUR personality that truly attracts me alot..my baobei is so witty n smart n playful also...no girls has ever out wit me b4 de..finally ive met my match liaoz =p my lifelong partner miss karen baobei!!!!I LOVE U ALWAYS!!!!!

2006-02-23T12:10:00.000+08:00

todays entry is specially for my beloved karen aka my gf-to-be =p

since i gotta know you my life is filled with laughters and love..thou for now im ur suitor and ya my gf-to-be..im sure this situation will change soon to ya my darling and im ur dear =p hehehe...ya come @ the right time of my life and hope my appreance in your life is the same for you also =) looking forward to our 2nd date 2mr =p hehehe...and do get enough rest later when u go home k..dun tire urself out k..i will heart pain for u de u knw =) ...always remember im always here for you always no matter how sick or broken i maybe..i'll always be there for u =) hope u feel the same for me too =p hehehe..everytime i think of you brings a smile to my face without fail..and i will be grinning from ear to ear like a small boy thinking of his sweetheart =p...thats the joy and happiness you bring to me even when ya not around me =p
The dream that i dreamt bot carrying u ard piggy back style when u injured ur ankle has shown how much i desire to be ur hero,ur bf,ur everything =p and the fact that i carried u everywhere we go has proven that i wish to be ur pillar of strength u can depend on =) hee ....The part of us bumping into my relatives n grand parents has revealed to you my desire to show you my beloved darling to my granny for she's been longing to meet my sweetheart=)

hApPy ChInEsE NeW YeAr tO AlL

2006-02-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

gOnG z FaTt CaI to all my beloved frens who view my bloggy =) been some time since i blogged..hope u all like this new blog skin..did with a little of editing the mouse trail and wordings at the gray bar benealth hee =)
finally made up my decisi0n to get a kick start with a career then pursue my interest some time later on ba lols =p nw just hope i can get thru final round of interviewing and i will officially get hired..yeah my 1st career thou i did work b4 after O's but this is different..i get to incorporate my life goal and interest in this new job...i get to organise events for the country club memebers!!! oh yeah something i always did during my sec sch n poly times oh yeah and i get paid by doing so nw!!!even BEST EH!!!!!wohohoho..well enjoy the brand new year pals..wish all of ya peeps gd life and cheerful spiritually always starting today!!!!life rocks on man!!!!

letz ride the rollercoaster again...

2006-01-19T23:13:00.000+08:00

getting by each year is always a fruitful year of lesson for me..life has always been a roller coaster ride if not it'll get so dull right=p lolz..humans r greedy in a way..too plain and smooth sailing will find it dull n boring..too exciting heart may just pop out of our mouth lolz..isnt it so contradicting??well ive always ride a playground swing ride in my life...its just makes my life more wonderful and beautiful =) just gotta take life "easy" by being full of smiles..scientist say too much frowning will cause aging to ur complexion of ur face faster wor(take note my frenz=p)..dun remember its becoz smiling uses more facial muscle or lesser lar but the truth is being cheerful and happy aids to our health esp mental health =) some medidation helps too as it helps to clear ur mind n soul of "impurities" =) so nw its a choice for me..face the up high challenge thats coming ahead as a game of "survivor" or a game at a playground???well i would choose playground =p coz my heart is forever young =) wahahahaha but fortunate my mind is matured and slowly stabilizing (o_-) hope any one reading this entry finds his/her path n way of coping with ur challenge..adios amigos

more than a decade that i miss ya yet again

2006-01-14T15:16:00.000+08:00

well many frens wouldnt knw this "secret" of mine..being an only child..when i was 7 years old back then was yr 1989..dragonball was the faze that drives us boyz nutty..i was so darn bored that i took pencil and paper and drew my 1st drawing but according exactly to the size in comics =p...wahahaha mum noticed my interest thus enrolled me into west art(some private) art school when i was 9 yr's old =)..well i cant remember everything in details but i do remember the art t-cher complaining bot the size of drawing i drew =p being stubborn me refuse to budge till she lodge a complain straight to my mum..lan lan lor i reluctantly "enlarge" my drawings lar =(...start off basic drawing..then go on to portrait drawing those kind where u use pencil ranging from 2b all the way to 6b to do drawing and shading of the shadows with the lighting effects...then go on the crayon colouring..my 1st competition was at ntu open house lols..i still got de cert of participation..my frens mum commented i drew nice..but after finisg colouring she say such a pity i dun colour with crayon gd enuff...i was so terribly upset i told mum i wana quit ler..mum ask y i say nthg...so u can guess hw long its been since i drew again thou i did some graffiti art on my sec sch bag and some tattoo design for my fren recently...nw then i realise i miss you my ART!!! never gonna give up on ya again..ya wat makes me creative with endless of ideas..nw then i realise ive been hiding away from my once failure..nomore anymore shall i run away..from nw ya my life and motivation...NOTE MY PORTFOLIO SHALL BE OUT SOON =P <>

its all in our mind..within our control!!!

2006-01-11T00:08:00.000+08:00

well money is the root of all evil..but isit so???come on its the own huma's greed thatz the cause..we humans always put the blame on god n such..but isit so???we beings have emotions n greeds..we can choose to be happy or sad irregardless of the situation coz its our brain thats sending the signal to our body to feel this way..and our brain is controlled by no one but ourself..so do u peeps still thk that its gods fault or ooooh its fate ba???come back to reality please..people wun pity u when u fall..people wont laugh at u if u make it big..everything is within ur own control..emotional n mindset part is all but within our own self control..so pals stay positive be like me...i look to challenges n setbacks as like a kiddy falling down while playing catching =) thou its self deceiving but i live a happier life than many =) hope all my frens who happen to read this entry go give some serious tought n learn from wat i just mentioned above..adios n gd night palz!!!

this is sensitive topic!!!

2006-01-09T00:45:00.000+08:00

well today while on cab back home after visiting rach..had a chat with this malay taxi driver..well finally got my facts right..uncle told me that muslim and christian is of the "same" religion..going by what the historians record..moses(10 commandment) is the 3rd last phrophet..then followed by jesus christ and muhahmad but the christians deny him as a phrophet after jesus died thus muhahmad..why i say bot this stuff coz both christians n muslim believe in god takes no form and this very basic kind of got me up the sits if both actualli hails from the same believe back then but becoz of smthg thats y got diversified..just like hinduism n buddhism..both believes in buddha..and buddha hails from india..u get me???my main point is..we all r believer of some religions for we trust him and wish to be a kind benevolent human being..why must there be fights n killing etc???did god be it watever religions own believe teaches us to kill?teach us to rape?teach us to hate?teach us to do heinous crime????FUCK THE TERRORIST WHO CLAIMS TO BE A MUSLIM..YOU PEEPS R JUST USING IT AS A PURE EXCUSE..DONT DEMEAN GOD!!!YOU INHUAME BEINGS R JUST AS GOOD AS PATHETIC MUD..U ALL HAVE BUT STRAYED FROM UR BELIEVE AND ACT LIKE HEROES IN NAME OF GOD TO COMMIT HEINOUS CRIME!!!PLS WAKE UP MR TERRORIST!!!!

more sober n settled than ever

2006-01-05T17:04:00.002+08:00

itz 5th jan ler!!!yet my bum still stuck at home..well some company want me for 1 yr concract sorry dudes..im going back to studies come july =p...well more or less i thk itz either advertising design in nafa or a business degree in sim /smu =)..well r/s wise im not sure but its true im interested in someone..well no hurry..gd stuff are worth the wait=p..new yrs coming i mean lunar de lar..yeah adbalone season yet again n bah gua!!!!yummilicious =p hehehe..well since my army life ended..start to feel so different..no longer like to wear any rings anymore..no longer so into punk or rock or those stuff i used to like..nw would prefer more longsleeve smart casual shirt than t shirt...would prefer to sit down at esplanade pub have some alchoholic than vigorous sports...coz my left knee n ankle is injured for yrs but yet to recover...feel so different than b4..more matured ler ba..more sensible ler ba..

more sober n settled than ever

2006-01-05T17:04:00.001+08:00

uShEr In YeAr 2006

2006-01-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

OH YEAH!!! year 2006 is finally here man!!!dread 2005 to the core..my army life effectively ended 20th dec 2005..my love life effectively ended 29th dec 2005!!!YEAH!!! all the bullshitz gone with 2005..all the disasters..all the bad shitz gone with yr 2005..letz usher in year 2006 yr of dog my year!!!iT'll DeFinitely be a great year!!!So LeTz US ALL ANITICIPATE ALL THE GREAT STUFF THATS COMING WITH YEAR 2006!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006 TO ALL MY PALZ..special thanks reserved for jianming,junna,shuzhen,xiao mei von,da jie ming li,da jie esta,sansan lolz..not forgetting my parents!!!

wats on ur mind may i knw???

2005-12-29T14:49:00.000+08:00

well at times i really dunnoe wat i want..im feeling so vexed and confused..someone save me please..im nw at a cross road of my life..looking for a job..dunnoe wat to study..dunnoe wat so ever anymore..im totally lost..i dun wana move..i need guidance nw..someone turn on the light please...show me the way out of darkness please..my heart is filled with sorrows..its overflowing..too much to take..im drowning in my sorrows...will soon be dead if no one comes along fast to save me...im sick of everything..fuck up man...im fucked up...arghz...im losing myself...fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!im losing sanity..im losing my gf..im losing my direction in life...im losing..forget it..just shed myself of everything and disappear..i need some time to sort out my mind..arghz...ah gong..papa where r u..save me..save ur grandson aka son..i need help..

to rule or be ruled???

2005-12-15T00:45:00.000+08:00

well had a conversation with my junior n realise that how a parent teach their kids r very vital to their upbringing and their mental growth..well for my case my mum never fails to care too much for me for im the only child..but gd thing is she n dad never interfere with wat i should study..they will just say do my best =)..mum is always the one showering me with tons of concerns..thou at time she will still ring me asking me where am i if im still out ard 11plus lols..but i dun blame her lar..wat to do no sibs to share mum rantings..thus @ end of day its just solely me @ the receiving end..but sometimes what erks me is she will compare me with her colleague sons..say how gd they r lar..but did i receive praise from them..to be frank i dont remember..thus most of time its self consoling and drive that gets me thru..expectations there is lar..to get into uni lor..thats my mums greatest wish =)..my junior told me that the oldest is the most independent..middle child will be more secretive and sensitive..youngest would be most well liked and cheerful..well theres certain truth in the deductions of the order of birth mentioned by my junior..thus i always do wat i do best lend a listening ear and give advices..to much freedom u will feel lost like me dunnoe who to learn as a role model and dunnoe who can guide me...thankfully ive got my god dad aka papa..hes always been my inspiration and my forever role model=)..if not really will feel very lost..well we just gotta take watever in our stride..thats life man..be strong like me XIAO SHI DOU..strong n steady =)

life is all but a rollercoster ride...

2005-12-10T01:43:00.000+08:00

well @ times life can be such a irony..one moment its going so high up like roller coastal till u dunnoe hw it will truly feel its like..a sort of anticipation and speculation as u "do know" how it feels when its 2 peak but u haven experience it yet thou theoratically u knws it...( a gd example would be: u do knw theoratically hw it cooks coz u watch hw ur mums cook..and u did cook b4..but when its like smthg happened few yr ago..u haven truly master it lols..well this part of example was due to a conversation with someone..i was kinda laughing my head off when she told me abot her cooking thoery..she always gd at hoolar people =) lols )...but one will never truly knw hw it truly is like till one goes thru it him/herself..thus people who went thru alot in life (hardships be it family,relationship or work area) r the most experienced than those who knows it thru books..if not why jobs nowadays prefer people with some working experience...well to live life good is how one choose to approach ones life...be positive n look @ the back(bad) side lightly thou its true it may be a form of self deceiving but @ least u will be more positive =) with that little bit of ugly back sight only lols..well do hope that frenz like nana n shuzhen can sail with the wind..for the wind will blow u away when the sky is gd n sunny..only time will tell but i believe the day will come for both of ya=) its just another downward rollercoastal ride..even the sun will be out after a destructive typhoon...stay strong girls!!!dark angel will watch over u quietly from afar to ensure all of u is doing well =)

tears of death

2005-12-06T01:43:00.000+08:00

1 truth no body truly knw that devils do tear..devil is nthg but a sentimental creature..tears flowed this very moment..he will cherish even the autograph book that his primary school pals wrote for him..the testimonial book that his npcc sec 3 squad wrote for him..chinese new year card given to devil by the 1st girl he is fond of..even the memories of my god grand parents doting me thou they stay @ malaysia..nw i finally knw why after the 5 day trip i find it so fast n every night i spend @ singapore feels so emotional ler..coz after going thru the photos ive taken with them..i realise all of a sudden hw old they've grown..my durian ah gong as i always call him is in such a bad condition that he cant even sit around..he gotta lie down on bed(he got knocked down by a car 2 yrs back)..really heart pain for my ah gong..and my dearest papa(my god dad)..thru the photos i also realise hw old he grew..without him i wouldnt knw wad all fatherly love is all about..well devil can be such a silly fella at times..in his whole life he only attended the ceremony of an angels fall..his great grandma when he was 8 million yrs old..he did cry..thus for past few nights in singapore he fear that one day they might leave him..i do cherish them alot..coz they all really dote on me alot alot..like whenever i was @ malaysia for all my holidays..my liu lian ah gong wud make the extra effort to go hunt wild boar n pluck durian,rambutan and banana and bar lu ku for me de =)..and of course my papa being a malaysian too he cant always stay in sg thou mama(god mum aka my mum's elder sister) is a singaporean and my ah fen(god parents daughter) stays in sg so that fen will have a better education as she is born in malaysia..he always teach me n guide me along..when young he will hit me if i do wrong and do the family jia fa of kneeling infront to beg for forgiveness..thru him i learn hw to be disciplined..thru him i gained courage and always be polite enuff to greet others =) thanks for liu lian ah gong liu lian po po and papa for all ur love towards me or ni ku (means botak) =) i will do my very best to do u all proud and not disappoint..must stay healthy and be there to witness devils gainning the throne ;p

14 more days and counting...

2005-12-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

been rather emotional @ night these days..will be missing the "dreadful" army life..well coz everything in army is preplanned b4 hand de..thus wat we soldiers need to do is to yes sire yes sire 3 black wolf ;p ...truly dread such near the end of another phase of life..dunnoe if its coz im too sentimental or wad..(today downloaded josh groban's u raise me up)..well thru my 2 yrs and 3 month and 16 days ive learnt how to be a real man..a transition whereby boys become real man..become more responsible coz in algae's world..if not careful will kana exterminated by the toxic extra duties ;p ...we learn how to be more tactful of who to mix around with and how to show respect properly if not kana invisble arrow from heavenly king also dunnoe for wad or why we kana for de..its just so amazing..but the devil is not one to be bullied..but of course all devil does is to scare the dman pesky algaes..n devil only haunts those pesky algaes if they find trouble with death when death haven come knocking to their doors yet...but of course its just a boo!!! wont go beyond that lar..devils is a compassionate night creature not some vengeful fella..after all the algaes need the sunlight to grow more mah =)..

malaysia retreat 28 nov- 2nd dec

2005-12-02T15:32:00.000+08:00

been 2 yrs since ive been to malaysia johore batu pahat ler..thats where my god grand parents stay and my god dad stays at tongkang pecha which is like 15min drive away from batu pahat..i stayed with my god dad at his fork lift repair n trading shop house =)arrived at tongkang ard 6pm..the driver stopped over at ayer hitam for a meal together on board the "ba wang ce" was 3 grannies..the taxi uncle was nice enuff to treat us all dinner..it was yong tau fu..yummy..best yong tau fu i ever ate ;p ...then it was time to go pay a visit to my god grand parents later at night..m1ss both them so much manz...been 2 yrs since i last saw them all thanks to army =p...day 2 was a trip to the fruit plantation that my god dad owns in the forest..a 1hr car ride from shop house to plantation..got mango tree..ba lu gu tree..pineapple..durian..banana..n many more..but sadly its not the season yet thus i din get to see any fruits at all =(...got bitten bdaly by the mosquito..over 20 plus bites all over..then later in the evening was a sight to behold..a visit to a malay family who knw native malay tribesman spiritual stuff..god dad wanted to go ask the malay sea god bot smthg but dunnoe wat it is...my god dad is one who knows such spiritual stuff too..he is able to command the god n spirits to come n go as he wishes to..wat truly beholds me was the moment the malay native sea god came into the bomoh's body..the thai god i pray to also came into my god dads body..wat a sight to behold.. a thai god and a malay sea god come face to face!!!wat a sight to behold..smthg no huan can even imagine it to happen needless to say dream bot such encounters..this trip was definitely an eye opener for me!!!
day 3 was a late evening shopping trip for me ;p..my god aunt drove me and my small aunt to summit shoppong complex =) bought my self 3 rings..a skull pendant for my c2 katherines birthday and a brown op sling bag for my new school term =) hee..thanks to my god dads 100 ringgit for me to spend ;p..and god aunt bought the chicken littel n the saw vcd =)
day 4 was spent watching the vcds..chicken little was a nice show for whole family to watch..and a last visit to god grand parents b4 i leave singapore..took tons of photos with god grand parents..god aunt and god cousin mei mei =)
day 5 woke up ard 830am as the driver coming to fetch me at 930am..took last few shots of photos with god dad..uncle..and the uncle working there..and the house upstairs..took shots of the living rooms..the rooms and the big dinning area..and the shop down stairs too..oh not forgetting niu niu the female dog =p got back to singapore ard 1pm..home sweet home..hopefully not too many people miss me too much..5 days pass too fast ler..gonna miss everyone back at malaysia and the good food =p hee

20th november!!!

2005-11-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

well todays is one of my poly gangsters wedding..miss santhi..my sister =)..well it started at 730 at fu chow building which is nearby jalan besar stadium..guess wat i was bit late and went to the wrong location ending up at another indian couple's wedding lols..its fu qing building lols..luckliy i din go into the restaurant..wud be damn embarrassing man..lols..lucky at the entrance they got display the couple's photo shots..i almost went in if i hadnt notice the photo shots..close shave lols..in the end i reached fu chow building like 745pm..lols..was surprise to see my whole poly class there also..so happy to see them all again..our mr handsome takeshi sorimachi look alike mr harry yan..our japanese pervert man look alike mr jerry ;p..our big appetite man mr jeremiah...(mr gentleman alvin aka )huiru's bf...(mr monkey chris aka) elizabeth bf..(mr sport car eric)aka phyllis bf...(mr motorbike..forgot his name) aka jac's bf...all in brackets r my classmates bfs ;p..and our mr joker robert tan..miss vocal lady wendy who is also roberts gf ;p..miss bi rong..miss sandy...miss yupei..and of course me lar mr MIKE SHAK!!!lols...and the dumb miss kam mingli aka my "big sis" who couldnt find her way to the buidling and went home instead..lols..it was a 2 hr long indian ceremony..rather religious and alot of process manz..but it end fast..after the ceremony end ard thk 9 pm..the relatives went to queue for their meal..after the meal they queue up to give the couple their blessing and token(money)..(smthg new to me)..for us chinese we gotta go around but for indian is the relative go up to the stage..new knowledge aquired..i was surprise when robert told me they giving 50 bucks and wendy the females co giving 40 only..they r full time working people and yet give so little???if i wasnt in army i would have packed 100 instead of 50..morever during santhis solemnisation 2 month back i packed a 40 buck packet for her...arghz..cant believe it manz..and smthg different was we all each get a small little metal container as gift form the wedding couple..unique manz..well its the 1st wedding of my frenz i ever attended..thou a simple affair but learnt alot of new stuff and sort of like a gathering for our whole class again..a worthwhile trip indeed..morever 20th december will mark my ord day!!!then 20th jan my poly alumni organising a bbq for all graduates ;p lols..isnt the 20th of every month such a wonderful day mah..;p well it does for my case..oh yeah!!!

bon voyage goyana

2005-11-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

hw may of u peeps sent ur frens off at airport..not those kind going for holidays but those kind of fren that is returning to their country..well i always dread such a scene thus i din send mr jan chow aka my little bro from america..a farewell party at his hse the night b4 he departs..n today..i braced myself to send my sista goy(thailand girl) off..shes been here like fora yr for a course study..and i just knw her for 3 weeks and shes gone..remember the 1st time i met her was at clementi..went to the aquarium shop with her(shes an avid fish lover too)..guess wat..a albino sucker fish(special type nvr seen b4 in my 23 yrs)..initially we tot it cost 70 plus..but..its 580 bucks!!!shes got gd eyes man..choose 1 already cost 580 lols..of course we din buy..its ridiculous man..lols..then 2nd time was me,goy n her rm mate tikky..we head to bt timah market to have satay beehon..as host i brought them to try out sg's very own creation satay beehon lols..3rd time was me,goy,fong(goys rm mate who is a vietnam girl) and richard my army bro..we head down to sentosa for some tan n volleyball..lols..me,fong n rich applied sun tan lotion mind ya..and yet goy got the most tan although shes under the shade..oh manz..then there after we went to harbour front for dinner..had the shilin tawainese snack..fong as usual is one who only finish 30% of the food portion ;p..
went to goy's hse to help her out..carry luggage down..25kg leh..oh man thk gold bar inside..lols..alot of books lar..got her a bouquet of roses n new army t shirt n shorts as gift for her to remember she got a bro in sg who is a soldier when she knw me n sadly the time she return im still a soldier..we 3 always joked bot angmohs (goys favour of the month ;p)..took some photos at her hse..airport..and the initial sky pub when i 1st meet up with them today b4 going over to her hse..reached the airport with heavy heart..=(..goy came over n gave me a hug..then tikkys turn..both me n tikky watch her go pass the entrnace door..goy turned back and wave us gd bye..me n tikky turned n walked away..i wanted to turn back but i knw i cant..coz i will cry..i hate the parting scene hell lot..
goy u will be missed by ur new found brother..i will be going to visit u next june eh and dun forget to invite me to ur weddings 3 yr later my dear sista..take care sister goy!!!

a new transition in life

2005-11-12T13:11:00.000+08:00

well in another 39 days i'll be thru with the boy turn into man phase of my life..army..officially turning inoperational mode this 20th december..miss my civilian rights..the freedom to do wat i wish to under no extreme green eyes scrutinity ;p...my LOUD hairstyles gonna be back soon...
well i planning to enrol into nafa.. do visual communications n majoring in advertising design =)..then will see if sim accepts me also..coz direct degree but prob is i may have the art n creativity in me..i still need to get my basics right 1st..thus i rather pursue a 3 yr dip plus 1 yr degree course in nafa rather than a 2 yr degree in sim..thou the 2 yr is wat i need coz afterall im 23 yr old..but again by time i get degree would at most be 28 yr old..so why not right..lols..been pondering alot during since september...how have my life changed and what lessons ive learnt in life..nevertheless i still trust my judgement that boys can never mature into a man unless he went thru army..well im at the last phase of my full time soldier life ler..glad i pulled thru unscathed..thou some minor ankle and back injuires lol..gonna miss my foresty expedition..a place i would adore it as the algae community..coz its green..you get me ;p and its too much to knw exact figures..well a new transition in life is installed for me thus im going thru a major overhaul to my image too..so behold my fren..the devil man is in the process of making liaoz..lol..the man thats been waiting for a long 6 darn years to "challenge" the society..but well can only absorb another 6 months of essence off the work force b4 i go into seclusion for another 4 yrs..thats when the dare devill shall be unleashed to the harsh working society where its like a survivor game..survivors ready.....

end of another chapter of my life...

2005-10-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

well i ended the close relation wtih that special someone..she wanted to me to hate her but i simply cant..how cant one hate another that once loved so much right..morever after i ammended my relation with my dad i've decided its tiring n simply dimb to hate some one..wat good could it do..now me n her r just good frens..well who says ex lovers cant be gf's after a breakup..lols..thru her n this relationship i grew up more in terms of relationship handling..thanks jassie..and i couldnt believe my magnimousity untill this relationship..i didnt wana end with her..but everytime she sees me she felt extremely guilty thus to let her life a life with no guilt or hat i decide its best to let her go..well there's one major chapter i couldnt wait to end asap..the special:the green algae colony(army of course lols)..well soon it will end..counting down to 20th december i'll be freed from army ler..oh yeah!!!

when something horrifying happens...

2005-10-17T04:23:00.000+08:00

someone close to me..or should i say i saw that someone close to me holding hands like as if they were a couple...i was gutted..big time man..i walked away..only to return to see them turning to kiss eachother..but they didnt coz they saw someone approaching..then when i was walking so close beside them..i saw them holding hand like a couple..i was at the max ler..i wana walk away but she held my hands n pull me to sit beside her..i told her i dun blame her entirely its true coz she is drunk..but the pain n hurt will take some time to heal..i asked few frens if they were me wat will they do..they say of course break lar..but i knw i wont..coz next day i re enacted the whole scene for her..telling her that i hope she learnt her lesson not to get drunk ler..and that 2mr which is 18 is our 1st month..let it all be forgotten but only remeber the lesson learnt whereby she shouldnt get drunk again..

my very 1st personal phrase..;p

2005-10-07T02:12:00.000+08:00

well i do come out with some personal phrase every now and then..lols..my very 1st was thk when i was 16 going to july 1998..in order to fire myself up for o levels i came out with some phrases..remember back then thk tv was showing some die hard movie...came out with nvr say die..then added it with 2nd part..so just do it..but its nike de scare they sue me coz they patent it..lols..thus it became___NEVER SAY DIE JUST KEEP ON TRYING...;p..well it suits me well..coz im stubborn..try once fail..nvrmind..i'll try again..2nd time fail...nvrmind just try again..but if it fails the third time...i'll reconsider my options ler..to see if its worth trying the 4th time =) and i personally thk its motivating coz it remind us to keep trying..dun be afraid to try again even after failing once or more..and to be strong..it also allows us to learn from why we did fail the 1st time thus 2nd try wont commit same mistakes ler..at times certain matters need us to see to it by trying several times after failing to finally one day achieve what we want..a very good example would be love..how many people are so lucky to have married their very 1st love?not many..thk 1 perecent or less..well we keep falling out of love one after another din we,right?and we nvr gave up and kept trying..untill the very day we get married..thats the thing everyone wana achieve from love after trying so many times n failing so many times..not forgetting the hurt,upset n disappointments..we just kept on believing that one day we will finally find the one who we will finally get settled donw with..someone who we will get married to and be together till day death do us apart..of course my phrase doesnt only apply for love lar..can be anything..from career to virtually anything....
Okay intially my intentions in coming out with this phrase was to encourage myself not to be afraid n disappointed if my prelims i din do gd..which i did very poorly..scored 28..kaoz..thus i continue to press on by thinking of the phrase i made..i've "failed" once..learn from mistake n ensure i do better n my o levels..which i did..a 21 in L1R4 instead of my prelim of 28 in L1R4..oh yeah wahaha..the end for the day..so my dear frens remember
NEVER SAY DIE,JUST KEEP ON TRYING

darkest thoughts

2005-09-29T01:52:00.000+08:00

well im a firm believer of gods,devils,angels n spirits...whether each kind is categorised as good or bad is up to individuals discretion as i believe theres no such category for such beings..like lets say theres a unholy weapon..if it falls into the hand of a evil man..it would be deemed a weapon of evil..if it falls into a kind hearted man..it would be of good use for good course..am i right..well i realise that in everyone theres a 50 percent good n 50 percent evil in us..it was supposed that the 7 greeds in us humans make us evil..the greed for sex..the greed for meat..the greed for booze..the greed for money..the greed for power..the greed for erm..the last 2 i dunnoe yet..lols..gotta go do some research..thus to become a monk we gotta be rid of the 7 greeds than will we be freed from all temptations..n be rid of all emotions..to maintain a level head n guide fellow man to good way..to lead by example..
well i do knw myself..i can easily swing from 50 percent evil to 90 percent evil..or 90 percent good from 50 percent good..im actually very afraid of my evil self..so afraid that at times i do wish to end my life just like that..the powers within my grasp is just so strong..it could reuslt in creation or destruction..a power thta could eventually lead me to self destruction..i do knw that my life is a short 60 yrs at most..well im not afraid of death even if i will be dying 2mr..when death comes knocking..pls excuse me my frenz..its time for me to bid u guys good bye..lols..well nvr be afraid of death..it arent so scary afterall..if u have live ur life to the max..there shouldnt be anything to regret...well if given a choice i dun mind having such powers again once more..but do hope in future it will not fall into the wrong hands..im sure it will not as i wont allow it to happen anyway..lols..good night my fellow bros n sis

wats a relationship for???

2005-09-27T23:51:00.000+08:00

well different people seek different needs in a relationship..someone look for emotional comfort..some just need companionship..some need that pamper..some need the encouragement..but doesnt relationship bring its cons too..the jealousy..the misunderstanding..the change of heart..the breakup..the cold wars..maybe we humans just need the spice in our live to give us that extras in life..today im upset with someone..really upset..dun wish to go into details..good night everyone

clearing 3 month off n leave

2005-09-21T17:15:00.000+08:00

oh yeah pals..im free from army ler..started clearing 3 month worth of off n leave lols..i could have got more..another extra month of off i calculated..but not enuff time to clear..wahaha..im free!!!well im gonna do some muscle buidling plus some beach volleyball at sunsetbay..so anyone wana join me???lolswell time flies man..start clear off n leave from 20th september..then exactly 3 month later 20th december i will be getting my pink ic ler..oh yeah oh yeah..everyday can wake up late liaoz..wahaha

attachment to guards unit was hell

2005-09-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

well todays my last day of attachment at guards unit..assist them to help them repair their weapons..this is my 3rd n a half week with them..mr foo..dominic..paul koh..alan huang..these r some frenz i had come to knw during my attachment with them..gonna miss u guys..i did wat i could to help to make ur working enviroment better..hope u all wont forget that shak was once ur "crime" partner lol..hope anbalagan will be ousted soon..if not i cant imagine what he will do to u guys..if he does let me knw thou i knw none of u guys will be reading this private blog of mine..well 1 more month to go before i start clearing leave n off..but im feeling sadz..another chapter of my life ending soon..going to miss army..especially frenships forged in army..jia u bro..ur time will arrive soon b4 u knw it..like me;p..well im nvr a guy who would see poeple suffer injustice de..i would go all out to help my fellow man address their wrongs n sufferings..just like my mum..lols..to uphold justice is within our bloddline..pity mum n me not police force peeps..lols

press lar..press some more n the shark shall bite

2005-09-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

today left 1 guard ard 12 noon..got a splinter in my fingers after changing some weapon parts;p..went to nuh for my medical appointment for my sprained left ankle..i suspect its more than sprain coz from time to time it'll hurt quite bad..a sharp pain with burning sensation after walking for long time or when i try to run..well the doc pressed ard my ankle so hard that i shouted in pain..kaoz..dunnoe if he's testing to see if i got fake injury or not as wat my army fren mr xu said while we were chatting on msn few minutes prior to writing this blog;p..well he says that there might be some tear around my ankle..gotta to a ct scan to find out..
well congrats mr kelvin tan weilian..u deserve this victory for u represent our nation true blue fighting spirit!!!well he's now a role model for all to see that no matter how one can be subtly inferior to others..as long as u believe in urself n have faith n determination..fairy tales do come true too for the brave hearts..so my fella frens take weilian as a role model n continue to fight on..dun give up n despair..i knw its easier said then done but im sure u can my bro n sis!!!
so let us FIGHT on!!!

lost 2...

2005-08-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

dun get me wrong its not the serial 2 of the show lost that is currently airing on channel 5 but its 2 of my polymates from the other module found again on my 1st day at 1 guard camp the dieppe barrack camp today;p yeah so happy!!! the 1st guy recognise me;p i also recognise him but all the while since yr 1 in poly i dunnoe his name any way;p the 2nd dude was none other than junyi..my fellow attachment pal;p..still remember the days we head to sunset bay to play beach volleyball..his gf n his gf's fren went to walk around while we play;p..that was like just b4 i enter army..so fast 2 yr has passed me by..it was a fruitful attachment to help the guards fellas repair their weapon..but bad news is my attachment is extended by 1 more week..coz 1 guard having Logistic readiness inspection whereby gradings will be given on the condition of their weapons.optics etc..so from today till next friday i would be at 1 guard which is at yishun..phew at least its nearer..oh another good news..one of the guards weapon tech wife gave birth to a boy this morning;p the father is my age;p so congrats to alan huang n wife yeah!!!

my last lap of honours...

2005-08-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

well since last thursday i was being attached to 3rd guards..their camp is near tanah merah mrt..being a bus concession user..i took bus journey to and fro the camp..took me 2 hours..take bus 852 from home to yishun int..then take 969 to tampines int..then take bus 10 to the camp..2hours eh..kaoz..enuff is enuff..since monday n today i've decide to take train ler..but its only an improvement of 30n minutes kaoz..take bus to bt batok int ..take train to bedok then take bus 14 to camp..sighz..unlucky me kana attach to such a far camp to help do repair for their weapons..but only gain is i get to go retrain myself for the time i lost my repair skill spent in the tech store doing storeman job since jan to july..thus its my last lap of honour;p..just before i ord..wahahaha

its costumes time!!!

2005-08-23T00:18:00.000+08:00

well well..today suppose to do duty but didnt coz i got oficial excuse letter;p then went to find medical officer for my back spine pain..he wana down grade me but he say he need specialist letter 1st..he's kinda hinting to me go get my specialist recommend letter and he will help me;p hehehe..well i will book an appointment with tan tock senh hospital by today tuesday..went off around 3 plus with mr poon n wilfred to go get quotation for costumes,ballons and t shirts..walk for like 20 to 30 minutes lor..my whole left ankle hurting badly..even right now when im blogging..could feel its swelling lor..we found the big costume shop..kinda eerrieee..got alot of female heads holding fake hairs..mask on de walls and rows of costumes..theres one model wearing chinese cheongsum with hair like sadako..very very scary...then dumb poon go n knock onto one of the standing models resulting in the model standing on one leg..i say sorry to the helper she say poon should say sorry to her..i told poon he better do so as this is the 7th month lor..dun play play lor..so he did as instructed..well its 1st time i strolling along the street got alot of islam shops..thou ankle hurts but quite an eye opener for me;p..well well gave myself off on today tuesday coz going to qian hu with brother ah ming to buy his discus fish we saw the other time;p..wahaha

20th august..4 more month to ord loh

2005-08-20T21:55:00.000+08:00

wahahaha..4 more month from now i will be getting back my pink i.c. and freedom..yeah!!!each passing day is a day closer to 20th december;p..yeah!!!man cant wait for de day to come..well coming monday is my last guard duty for my army life time lor..yeah!!!well nowadays ord is the word hanging on the edge of my lips;p hehehe...gotta start hunting for jobs soon..so frens got any to intro???well me hope to earn 2k a month,even if i gotta work 2 jobs per day..i wouldnt mind as long as its not mlm job..HATE IT!!!gotta save up to learn driving..buy a new computer and save for trip to austin;p..going to visit brother jan n his sis pam;p..will be my 1st trip oversea alone;p yeah!!!next yr will be a great year for me eh..car license..followed by trip to austin..new computer then lastly studies in university...hehehe

pissed..angered..provoked by the whole mlm stuff

2005-08-18T00:18:00.000+08:00

its only due to a frenship that dates back to pri sch time that i attended upon request..i knew it was smthg i HATE the most but becoz of my long time frenship i gave face..true it was an mlm..multi level marketing company..dumb fellas..hey thk bot this..a new company trying to market their product..whats the latest and cheapest way to do so???direct sales..mlm lor..not much advertising required..save on tv ads..its damn ex u knw..save on air ad..just as ex..so hw???sell the product to ur workers at "factory price"...get back 50% of the "factory price" sold to customer lor..hey..imagine how much the company would have saved..1stly..advertising fee..2ndly..middleman fee..3rdly retail space fee..4th electricity,water and other micellaneous..hey i save whole lot by letting you my worker go sell it at ur own expenses but u get 50percent of the sales eh..why not the worker will say..sighz..sad for my frenz..long term eh..once the market is saturated with so many workers or the products no longer have a market here..it'll move out of de country..if its truely so good why didnt supermarts take in the products???wouldnt the government wana earn some too???think hard my frenz..short term goals yeah you can get it..but dun forego ur full time job or goal for this short term gian k..do it as extra its ok..so hope u get me my life time fren..all the best

back..but still weak

2005-08-14T13:05:00.000+08:00

feeling much better ler..thanks for all of ya concern..amanda..evonne..baihe..alexcia..the diarrhoes n vomitting has drained almost 90 percent of my strength..nw back to 60 percent only..still feeling very weak..sighz..my 2nd consecutive weekend wasted just like dat..so sadz..but anyway with each passing day..im inching closer to my ord day..20th december 2005..gonna start clear off n leave come october..thk wont be fully recovered till thursday or friday ba..hope to recover soon..

on the brink of death...

2005-08-13T13:57:00.000+08:00

last night was almost the night i bidded fare well to all of ya..had diarrhoea n vommitting non stop..endured till i reach back home..things worsened..my head felt hot..my hands n feet felt extremely cold..was terribly weak n coulnt move..continued to vomit n diarrhoea..mum n aunty broght me to go see doctor..thats when my hand starting to have spasm..felt horrible..like those people who kana stroke..nw i knw hw they felt coz i almost suffered stroke..feet having spasm too..it hurts so much that my left wrist was very very pain..if outsider dont knw..they may thk i suffered stroke..doc gave me an injection..she said that my body potassium n acid is running low and that includes carbon dioxide..felt like dying..i knew that if i din see doc in time i may suffer from stroke ler..and my head was spinning..was having a fever of 38.6...yesterday night was the worst day of my life..almost died..just this close..god dad told mum that if i dun pull thru i will definitely suffer from stroke and go into coma..life full of twist isnt it so..

love breaks ya down or it gives ya strength?

2005-08-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

seeing frens falling out off love one by one..adelyn..cindy..junna..mingli..vernice..well..they've had hopes but had not their hopes but also their heart smashed..others like my ah mei evonne..elizabeth..shuhua..huiru..jacqualine..wellsanthi getting married within this month..the others planning to get engage next yr like veron..mostly my poly frenz..they had hopes n its relishing..well we wont knw till we try right..marriage fails coz they just jumped head in too fast..hey marriage arent like relationships..not going well..can just end..then wat for get married in de 1st place..well nowadays people start to treat marriage like a relationship without marriage committment..heck lar..no wonder divorce rate so high..sighz..marriage nw not as strong as b4 ler..sadz..now even an ordinary relationship seems so fragile..like my childhood fren bg heng..his gf of 4 yr left him coz she couldnt tell him her work problem n felt her colleague is in better position to listen to her..thus end the love and gone with her colleague..sighz..frankly i dunnoe..but i do knw if u feel she/he's the right one..try to knw her/him for some time better 1st..if not ya just wasting eachother time n chances..or anyone has a better solution?

life getting dull...

2005-08-07T01:45:00.000+08:00

jan chow..my bmt fren in army..went on to attend small arms course in army..then post to different camp..we still met up often to play soccer or basketball during weekends..he's my "little bro" and he acknowledge im his big bro too;p..he's a sg born american..family stay in usa while he alone in sg servng army..wont forget the 1st time we went to watch movies..man 1st time go movie with a guy eh..1st fren hse i stayed over too..well he's my little bro..he's returning this 9th august to study..gonna miss him alotz..those crazy days we had..playing soccer together..from a dunnoe even hw to kick a ball or pass to today a fella who's able to dribble and score goals..known him for 2 years..gonna go accompany him for his "last" night in sg on monday...he's flying at 3am on 9th august..but at least he'll be back 3 yr later to serve wat he owes army..or i fly over to houston to look for him..why not;p wahaha..felt like a close fren lost..hate this feeling..it wont be same no more..and there's someone i miss alot alot..dunnoe if she knw who she is..well 2 more month to go and i'll be clearing leave n off ler..with my excuse lower limb for 3 mth..i've become the untouchables;p..nw slack till ocotober liaoz..yeah!!!

lawless me...

2005-08-06T01:42:00.000+08:00

back today coz of sever back pain..an old injury..so painful that cant stand or sit uright for long..my last range ever probably..may be down graded to become clerk sighz..i rather remian an armouere n repair my weaponz..had a conversation/debate with "colonel" xu aka my army buddy..he got 2 frenz plus him 3..3 thoery bot survivor..changing oneself to suit the environment..changing environment to suit oneself..last theres no law to comply to..mr xu belongs change oneself to suit environment..bullshit coz he's always yelling at people to chenge environment to suit him lor;p no offence colonel;p..me belong to the extremist mr xu claims..the no law to comply to group..i believe in it..coz law are made for those with no discipline..i am me..why change?the environment is not easy to change at all..path is walked by man's feet..law is made by man..i live by no laws..precise..i go against any law n system there may be..i am me..a true leader dun follow law..he creates them..to suit everyone..not for himself..thatz my believe..be a leader to lead..be bold..dun follow the trend..lead them instead..

mike relives...

2005-07-31T12:39:00.000+08:00

mike relives..my close frens were right..its just a name..why abolish it..thus i've decide to keep it for good this time..its me that needs to "upgrade";p..i'm just a pentium 2;p..wahaha..need to update it to pentium infinity;p..hehehe..man my papa is a true leader..do hope his building empire rises high up..its my dream to assist him in wadever area i can..hope to do some charity soon..would love to learn some magic and organise free performance for orphans..i love kids man..hehehe

as the wise sage speaks

2005-07-30T17:14:00.000+08:00

yeah so happy my papa returned from malaysia..my papa is my father's sworn bro cum my mum elder sis husband;p..wahaha..my papa has always been the one guiding me and disciplining me;p..wahahaha..our family got this knee down fdamily ruleif i were to commit mistake..i'm to do this punishment even if i'm as old as 30plus..its family tradition thingy..papa was right..i shouldnt be busy chasing after skirts and keep getting myself into silly stuff..cannot be so wilful and indecisive..there's just so much i haven learn from u papa..your appearance always at the very exact period..but i'm happy that at least i din disappoint ya..hehehe..of course he tecah me more which i cant reveal it here coz its our family's trade secret;p bleah sorry palz..heehehe

just purely me...

2005-07-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

a peek into who i am..hmm..a true believer that all human are born kind..but due to misguided teachings or wrong peers influence that shade us black..i dun mean they're bad but too much of the wrong stuff if very unhealthy physically and mentally..kindness begets kindness..ok true that at times my kindness may not beget kindness direct at me but it does goes to the other party..so yup..kindness definitely begets kindness =)..i'm a metrosexual coz i care alot bot my face;p i dun have a nice complexion as my face is bit scarred coz of pimple scarz..a little unknown secret..i use shampoo to clean my eyebrow wahahaha.sssssshhhhhhhh..hehehe..i do blackhead peels too;p..shorty of doing masks only..wahahaha..cares lot bot how i dress too;p..maybe coz of mum..shes just so hip..luckily when young she'll always bring me out to shopping..thus i've seen lotsa clothing when kind should be playing with toys;p..thus frenz like junna and vernice benefit my companionship coz i can shop and does gives feedbacks;p..perfume???erm not so much coz my nose bit allergic to it man..sadz..wahahaha..fsahion sense??i dress to my way..never like to follow the trend coz i dun like similar dressing styles with others..thus nowadays tend to dress "weirdly"..having some great ideas coming up my sleeves..thus palz..if one day ya see "an alien" on da streetz..fret not k..coz itz juz me..yeah..cheerz

c.s.i>>>in face of death

2005-07-28T15:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday spent my night over at brother jan chows hse..man gonna miss him when he return to USA for his studies..he's a singapore born american..my bmt mate cum armt tech course mate aka my little brother;p..man of late dun like to stay at home..my parents irk me whenever they step into my room..cant wish to get out of this place man..buddy sawah ah sawah..fret not k..ur wish made will come true one day..just be patient k..this morning watched c.s.i>>crime scene investigatiors at jan's hse..its bot this man who loves his daughter so much that he kidnapped the officer who captured his daughter for murder..the father trapped the officer within a coffin and buried him alive underground with some air ventilation and explosives beneath..time is running out as the police got like 90min to track their fellowman out..gonna fast forward..the coffin is cracking as the fire ants entered thru the crack and bit on his flesh..its thru this fire ants that they manage to narrow down to 2 exact spots where the officer may be at..plus the info that the daugther of the kidnapper loves gardening..they were able to locate just one exact location where the officer is(fast backward..the kidnapper blew himself up after he was rounded by the policemen..)..time is now down to last 10 minute when they arrived the scene and started digging..just when theu managed to dig out the soil and when they're bot to lift the lid up..another officer rang and told them that there are explosives beneath the coffin..they tied the officer in the coffin round his waist..while a tracktor lifted a huge pile of soil and poured into the coffin..the other police pulled the officer out of the coffin..kaboom it exploded..its was one of the most horrible moment to be trapped in the coffin..but guessed what...
the officer went to visit the daugther of the man who kidnapped him..he told her not to be sorry for he din blame her neither should she let this matter bother her after her release..man how magnamous he was..he was able to mantian a clear mind and not let anger or hatred to misjudge others..hope someday i could be like him..when that day arrives i would deem myself to be successful..

mike is officially pronounce dead 26th july 2005 1159pm!!!

2005-07-26T21:51:00.000+08:00

i've changed..or i should say i've decided to change for my own good..haven been sleeping for past few nights..been pondering whats wrong with me of late..things arent the way it should have been..people of late had been dissapointed with me..i'm really very sorry..once past midnight 12 today 26th july i shall no longer be known as mike to anyone new frenz i may made..shedding away this name means shedding away part of me..my minds made up to go away from singapore for 2/3 years to come if the opportunity arises next year..maybe going oversea to study or to work..where and when will it happen???i've no idea yet..its time for me to go out see the world and learn new stuff that one can only exprience the knowledge by going oversea..i'm sorry if frenz dun like this mr shak thats born on 27th july 0001am..please dun ask why or what happened..its for my own good and it shall be good for all around me..so pals lets rejoice!!!

a tribute to all my ex gf's

2005-07-26T00:11:00.000+08:00

there are stuff that i do regrets..thou i always thought that one should never regret..but we're all human afterall right..wahahaha..i regret not studying hard for my o levels..i regret not doing well for my poly thou i got average B's..i regret not taking up the opportunity to be dj..i regret hurting a girl..my greatest regret ever..something that i could not forgive myself..but i do know that i never regret knowing all my ex gf's..i treasure each moments i have with each of you my former gf's..jeslyn aka lifen..queenie lin yanhong..situ sijia..weiqi....yvonne lim..angel..veena lee..latest sarah ow huimin..i've learnt alot from each of you..and i was foolish and immature not to be frens with some of ya..the one that i learnt the most is from sarah..you taught me smthg that will be extremely useful in my life..thanks alot meow meow..wahahaha..thanks 2 jeslyn for being my 1st gf..thanks to queenie for being the only one girl to ask to be my gf..thanks to sijia for teaching me the harsh reality of modern society..thanks to weiqi for letting me know hw it feels to have a gf who'll always listen to ya..thanks to yvonne for showing me another side of life..thanks to angel for showing me that money does not equal to happiness..thanks to veena for showing me that determination wins battle..thanks to sarah for letting me know that a magnamous person with big heart and open mind wont feel pain as often..something that i was looking for all these years..thank you all for coming into my life..may each of you lead a happy loving life..jeslyn>>do curb ur temper..queenie>>quit drinking and smoking..sijia>>dun expect too much from ur guy k..weiqi>>dun be too bidding..yvonne>>go out and explore the world more..angel>>quit smoking and spend more time with ur mum..veena>>be more independent..sarah>>have more confidence in yourself..

mike no more...

2005-07-25T21:23:00.000+08:00

today is a brand new day of my life..sorted out my thoughts today..learnt alot from my buddy wahwah..thanks..ya taught me how to truly be magnamous and to accept stuff be it positive or negative with an open heart and mind..must have a big heart if not one will always be complaining over minor issues and overlook important issues..from ya i realise what i not lack is love..whats more important infront of me right now is the issue of my uni studies..gotta consult my "superiors"...i've evolved into someone with same basic qualities with some newly added ones..hope all my friends wont have a hard time "getting to know" this me..mr shak!!!

the beginning of the end as the devil fell into nowhere..

2005-07-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

the devil is always full of wacky ideas and so ever playful..but deep in the devils heart its full of pain and sorrows.but who understands the devil???at time the devil dun even understands himself..the wings is just as useless as a prop..a wing that cant carry me far and beyond..the devil is kinda lost..he does not know what the futures brings for him..he got no idea is his wings will fail him..he fears that he may just die one day without achieveing what he set to do..
what if he fails???the devil needs guidance..somebody show me the way..

a good deed done last with one forever...

2005-07-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

today me n my army frens went to ju eng home off jalan kayu do do charity work for the old folks staying there..sang birthday songs for 7 of the birthday granny and grandpas..i always din like the feeling when i first step into the old folks..this was my 2nd trip this year..it makes me sad to see the old folks being "abandoned" there..during the part where my fren was singing chinese song for the old folks..one of the granny chatted with us..mdm leong yoke yin..she toked bot how terrible life was in army in the past..how little the allowance is for us to be able to survive on it..but the most emotional part was when after she asked me n mathias bot our family part..she broke down n cried when she mentioned bot hers..saying its so tragic to be broke..she cried and cried..it made me n mathias eyes so red..felt so emotional during that moment..we tried to cheer her up by asking her not to cry..then she said sorry to us..oh man shes such a kind lady..guessed she knew her words got us both emotional..then she said i love you to me n mathias..it was such a touching moment..fortunately for me i do knw hw to listen and speak in cantonese..she used cantonese to communiate with us..my other pals was baffled by what she was saying to them..man are they lousy..i mean im a khek not even a cantonese but i knw cantonese and hokkien but not khek..wahahahaha..then we distributed beehoon for the old folks for tea break..i immediately took some and gave to mdm leong..got her some coffee to go with it too;p..asked if shes hungry and got her a second serve with soya bean this time round..hahaha..then i proceed to play "dump" with a grandpa..man was he good man..i kana "trashed" by him..wahaha..he's without doubt the king of "dump" game at ju eng home..evrything ended by 430pm and we left...today one special person got me worried dead man..was smsing with her ard 5 plus till 6pm..then no reply..me got home fell asleep..when woke up ard 7plus..rang her but no replies..i was freaking out..not knwoing what to do next..girl do u knw i was dead worried bot you..scenes of you meeting some mishaps went thru my brain..i knew if smthg were to happen to me i'll get mental breakdown..fortunately u picked up my call ard 8pm..only to realise u went to have dinner without bringing ur hp..man oh man..what a day it was for me..emotional upheavel...

exactly 5 more month from today i'll be free!!!

2005-07-20T22:48:00.000+08:00

oh man..2oth july ler..i'm inching closer to my freedom>>20th december;p..oh yeah..the devil within has been holding out for 23 months ler..wahahaha..5 more moths and the devil within shall be unleashed..bewrae folks;p..wahahaha..oh man dun time flies..it virtually zipped past me man..it all started back then 20th august 2003;p the very year i graduated from ngee ann poly..was kinda excited bot it coz finally got the chance to stay away from dad n mum..woooohooo..hahaha..its was a great 3 month experience in pulau tekong;p..wahaha..1st week there kana fever liaoz..gotta book out that friday while the rest stayed in thru the weekend coz its a confinement week;p..yeppee..my 1st nose bleed was given to army lor..i was at toilet 2 plus am urinating..then i sneezed..initially tot it was mucus only..then i find it weird coz its so free flowing unlike mucus sticky one..goosh its blood..wahaha..i sneeze burst my vein in my nostril..wahahaha..then for the rest of my time in tekong..i got hit by fever another 3 times..wahahaha..;p..oh man miss the days spend at tekong..so memorable

miss...

2005-07-19T17:11:00.000+08:00

i've got another confession to make..i do miss you..dread the part when we parted..just wana hold on tight to u and never let you go..wondering what u're doing this very moment..wondering if you're missing me too..wondering if u're thinking of me too..let me know your thoughts..thanks for being a part of me..let me knw if u miss me..tell me what ya doing..you know who you're..

devil's lost in middle earth

2005-07-17T15:04:00.000+08:00

days passed by..with red blood washing the surface of middle earth..here i'm walking in circles not knowing where to head..felt kinda lost..devils wing is being clipped by the green colony..it'll be 20th dec before i'll regain my freedom..and the devil shall tear thru the middle earth and descend upon earth..been a long journey since the day i've been trapped in the green colony since 19th august 2003..it was long ardous journey..where shall i choose next..undergo special training at some institues or engage in a fierce battle with earthlings in the place humans call working society..the devils waited long enuff..but will the devil suffer a fate worse than totally destruction..or will some earthlings tear open my flesh and chew upon my flesh like they've hated me forever..warning to earthlings and green colony..the devils is badly wounded and is bleeding with each passing day..death shall fall upon those who provokes a injured devil like me..ok enough of my devil craps..been feeling rather upset for the past few days..i dun knw why..could it be becoz of someone..of smthg..sighz..arghz..cant wait to get out of the green colony(army) soon enuff..wana get a job that pays 1600 and above..wana get my car license soon..wana get into a local uni soon..wana study finance..wana go malaysia this yr end and learn the way of life and great wisdom from my god dad..will be udergoing some training with god dad this yr end..will be chanting prayers while medidating..going up another level..will be going into seclusion for 2 weeks i think..and frens shall see a brand new me after i return from my special training..

fly away..flap my wings and soar the sky..

2005-07-13T00:19:00.000+08:00

last friday went to meet up with nan nan n veron my yr 2 poly mates..nan nan told me she just quit her job..shes doing some selling of materials for cloth..require alot of travelling overseas to meet clients..starting pay is 24oo excluding commissions..plus comm is 3k plus lor..wow..get to travel to japan,china,india,taiwan etc...cool..hehe..asked nan nan if they need people..yup they do leh..i did ever ask mum if my job require me to station overseas or travel alot will she mind..shes ok with it;p hehehe..but hw bot my degree in finance???hmm..gotta give it a serious consideration..then only one who can make me kick out this idea is my gf if i have one..i'll definitely stay for her;p hehehe..im more concerned bot my studies..heard finances not easy in uni leh..but o like finance alot..peeps like warren buffet,doanld trump and robert greenspan is my role model;p..3 more months to go b4 i clearing leave and off..gotta give a very deep tought and discussion with famiy that includes god parents bot my future..which path is best for me???kinda lost at the moment..my love life???this yr is the most plain n flat loveless life ever since i started when i was 17..are u reading???;p u know who you are..hope u can make a great difference;p hehehe..im waiting for u..but do u knw who im referring to???hahaha..theres still so much to do yet so little time..esp in army alot of things cant be fulfilled..its like stuck in the mud kinda feeling..reading the life line on my palm hurries me alot coz juding from the length its like i can only live up to 65 at most..thats short..sighz..i can do nthg to change this fact..but i wont fear or neither am i scared;p..its my life..l.i.f.e. equals live it fullest evertday!!!yeah thats all folks..

tiring weekend

2005-07-10T00:33:00.000+08:00

was doing guard duty on saturday..nthg much coz i was guard 2ic..giving my guards order;p..hehehe..sunday was a tiring day but luckily my poly junior vernice asked me out on friday ler..so my weekend was fulfilling..i wasted past 2 weekend coz cant get anyone to go out with me..we met ard 330pm at jurong east..had my 1st dinner at marche with vernice as it was raining..peeps told my its ex n serving is small..i find it cheap ler..we had pizza..sausage and wedges plus drinks..cost only 25bucks in all..much cheaper than sizzler which i use to frequent last time..cost 25 plus per person leh;p..marche cost the same as han's..the food is ok lar..sizzler is better..chey..all the hype bot marche is nthg..thk its over rated ba;p..my this junior is those kind see what she like just buy one..last time read her blog is like..almost every week she surely buy some stuff one..non stop..worse than me leh..luckily this shopping trip i was with her thus saved her at least 50 bucks..we shopped from 6 non stop to 930pm..scouring thru taka..heerens..far east and wisma atria..wen thru all the mango shops within orchard..top shop and others;p..luckily my pay is only 560 a month..if not thk i may spend llike vernice..saw a few shirts that caught my eyes..like the long sleeve shirt with luminous green strip with white back ground from zara cost ard 89;p hehehe..saw some trekking pouch that look cool and those brown haversack which my "mummy" triney promise to get me for my bd which she haven yet to=(..

hows my new all black me found in my frenster acc?

2005-07-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

been some time since i blog again..i'm not one who blogs daily telling people ive been to toilet yet again..daily stuff is such a bore man;p..haha..once again im back to the front line..going back to workshop to repair weapons once again..goodbye tech store..gd bye mdm veen and bro sebastien,toh,sathis n khairul..had a great 6 mths with ur peeps..thanks for the great memories and the friendship forged=)..but bad news is i gotta repair gpmg..arghz..one of the most horribly weak weapon that get damage easily and take long time to repair ..arghz..nevermind i gonna declare to my section ic that after september i gonna slack all the way ler..ording soon on 20th december;p hehehe..yo ho 5 more month to go lor..btw any job to intro pals???let me knw k

hero's back!!!!

2005-06-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

yeeah!!!!went to nuh to see the ortho specialist..he said my left ankle injury is just a normal sprain..after 2/3 months should recover liaoz..yeppeeeeeee..i can continue play my soccer and other sports lor..yeppeeee..hehehe..yesterday was on dumb guard duty again..i've been doing guard duty at least once a week for past 3 weeks lor..and guess what next sat i'll be doing duty yet again..kaoz..arghz...

how to think like a millionaire

2005-06-26T18:10:00.000+08:00

i happened to read a book titled:how to think like a millionaire..doing business has always been my life long ago since 17 years old..people like greenspan..buffet..trump..gates..wong woo are real life idols that i admire..but by following their foot steps will never get you to anywhere close to what they have achieved in life..each of the above prosper in different type of commodities..each already having a stronghold in the market..thus if one wish to outdo them..my advice is to go all out and discover what strength and interest that you really are interested in..this interest will give you the extra drive to push on even after failures..i've always believed in pursuing one's interest of hobbies..dun try to immulate anyone..but always try to outdo yourself..how to do that..i'm still on the learning curve..donald trump was one time so successful that he bankrupted..how that happened i dont knw..i'll tell u all when i read up on his books..and he regained his stronghold on the market within few years..why is he able to do so..now i shall reveal what i read in the book title i mentioned above...>>>
i'll start by the the kind of fruit beared depends on the quality of tree thoery>>>
people always judged others by the kind of fruits beared not by the quality of the tree bearing the fruit..well most are just that shallow arent we..why was trump able to do it coz he's got it in him..he's got that billions in him not the billions of dollars of commodities he possessed that manage to get him back fast after he bankrupt..its bit hard to understand i knw coz it took me sometime to understand it too...
the tree and fruit thoery>>>what kind of fuits beared depends on the quality of the tree..but the kind of quality of tree it is depends on what?the composition found in the soil that the roots of the tree absorbs..its what the book says the unseen qualities..its these unseen qualities that gives about the fuits being beared...coz if the tree quality is poor..but the soil and other minerals is good..the tree can also bear gd fruits and turn the tree into a quality tree...
And so what is this composition in the soil gotta do with us?its what i call the inner self..to succeed in whatever we do..at times we do need to change our perspective and the way we do stuff..its always this 1st step that hinders us from success...out of ten thk at most 1 dares to take this 1st step out to change his always believed will succeed views..i knw its like hell to tell yourself that all these yrs what u blieve in and the techniques u acquired is of no use for u..different people require different things to succeed in life..be it family relations..be it bgrs..be it studies..be it careers..can be anything..all i can say is you gotta be BOLD enuff to change whta is ought to be changed so as to succeed in whatever u have failed..ponder hard on this..if got anything u dun understand look for me in msn..i'll try my best to help ya pals..gd luck

the fearless man...

2005-06-23T01:28:00.000+08:00

life been good to me recently..all thanks to my fren levonne that i manage to pluck up my courage to post my newly taken pics with my 6680 on my msn and friendster...thanks alot pal..another fear cleared..inching closer to completion;p..one after another..my fears beginning to be vapourise into thin air;p..had always felt inferior bot my looks..but no more..kekeke

holiday arrived early...

2005-06-21T23:22:00.000+08:00

harlow amigos..hahaha..been slacking at home since last thursday to today..kekeke..took 2 day off on last thursday n friday;p then yesterday and today was on mc..hehehe..feels great to be a civlian again..hahaha..been to movies..went to watch batman begins and mr n mrs smith..both show damn cool...esp the bat mobile woooooooooo...so cool...really enjoyed myself for the past six days..haha..nvrmind four more months and i'll be thru..hahaha...soon..kekeke

mike shak evolves..chapter one..the silent baby

2005-06-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

mike shak was born year 1982 may...sometime around 6 am..my first breathe of earthlings oxygen felt like freedom..something never before...i was known to be a very quiet baby..very easy to handle coz i dun cry nor do i move about much..just put me anywhere there i will be sitting there staring into the blank..thus alot of elders love me..such a cute n easy to take care of baby;p..never like the plastic feeling of sucking the pacifier thus prefered to suck my left thumb..yummy..kekeke..hhmm..i was born with the special capbilities to see stuff others cant see..stuff like spirits...hhmm..they look so human to me..sometimes i felt they are so pitiful..floating around aimlessly not going wad to do or where to go...>>>to be continued

batman begins....

2005-06-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

went to watch batman begins with levonne at jurong east entertainment today;p..the story tells of how batman comes about..weird thing is..bruce wayne aka batman greatest fear was none other than bat itself..hahaha how funny it is...
levonne helped me overcame my inferior self on my looks...thus was able to post my pic on frenster n msn;p..kekeke hope i dun frighten u away;p..now my fear of people commenting how i look like is conquered..i'm another step closer to become a fearless man...
so theres batman begins...now theres mike shak evolves....

the true meaning of love

2005-06-10T01:21:00.000+08:00

enuff is enuff...seeing close frens like junna suffering..seeing my fren winnie still cant get over her ex after 1 yr plus..seeing myself stuck here not knwoing what to do..seeing my bro lost after his girl left her after being 2gether for 4 yrs...what truely love is???
love is..when boy meet girls..they both like eachother..decide to be 2gether..and happily ever after???nope..its not so simple..sometime u feel its him/her..but its not why..becoz when there come a point that u gotta change urself to please ur loved ones..you are not suitable for him or her..one should never change for others sake..if not thats not you no more..why change for love..love should be the most natural thing..not just oh i like u u like me..must be able to be urself in the relationship..no need for any change in one..free to express urself..free to be urself..thats how love should be..
in the past..me had to alter myself to suit my ex gfs...i had a hard time..coz i wasnt myself when in bgr before..i neglect my pals..became a "maid" for my gf..i was being silly..suddenly i became the "girlfren" in the relationship...no no..i'm a man eh..
i gotta be myself in the relationship..given the rights to express myself freely..just by being me..and letting my girl be herself..let her rant at me..let her hit me..let her be herself..no changes to suit eachother..if it works out..congrats pal..you've found the mr or miss right..=)
do you pals get me???hope you all do..if you do..celebrate coz happiness on its way to embrace ya..good luck to all
for winnie>>>memories are made for us to remember good moments..when u finally decide its time to chuck it away in ur memory lane of the happy moments u n ur ex share..congrats u have finally let him go(the feeling of wanting him back but the happy moments u two share are kept in ur memories forever)..then would you beable to move on...good luck girl..jia you worz

the latest chic i got;p

2005-06-07T21:33:00.000+08:00

after months to choosing and undecisive moments..finally i set my sights on you..thou it "cost" me alot to get you..but no regrets..you're the prettiest babe there is and definitely the latest chic;p haha and thats my new hp nokia 6680 the 3G phone..cost me 900 plus..without plan of course..keke..thanks to my brother jianming who loaned me the whole some if not i wont beable to buy it at all..bro thanks alot for your loan..will return to u in monthly instalments of 200;p..having fun trying out this new "chic" of mine;p kekeke..theres more to come..going to apply for the 3G thingy and test it out;p..

beachy bally funny me;p

2005-05-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

keke..today went to sentosa with my frens for some fun..initially thought there will tons of babes but it was not meant to be..dun knw why..hmm..but got many sceondary school kids...full of kiddos..hahaha..the surprise of the day was i bumped into boey who's my 4sir camp fren;p hahaha..joined his team for a game of volleyball against a strong team;p...playing 5 against 5;p..me did ok scoring 3 point and saved 2 ball from going out court;p..but in the end still lost 12 to 15 thou at 1 point we were leading 12 to 6 kaoz...overall had a fun day at sentosa;p

matters of heart<<<<<<<<<<

2005-05-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

i'm getting very very confused here..i'm always very very happy to see my frens getting attached..coz i could rejoice with them and feel their happiness..but of late..one fren after another is undergoing heart breaks..it truly pains my heart to see what they're going thru...and yet i cant do much to comfort them..i feel so useless..if only i could some stuff to help ease their pain or lessen their pain..i wouldnt mind help share the pain if they'll feel less of it..my dear frens(you knwo who you're)..hope that with each passing day..you'll feel better..and lesser of hurt and pain..may you be cheerful and sunny again..may god bless you all..

its never easy to say good bye...

2005-05-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

an ordinary and simple word like good bye can be so easy but at times..its can be just so hard..
it doesnt help if one is an only child and both parents are working..sometimes one do feel that is there someone who realli understand him..sometime one even feel that he dun even understand himself..lately one's frens very upset..but one cant do anything to console fren..in the past one was always able to help..but now one seems no longer to be the same one..especially if it concerns to stuff that is categorised under matters of heart..one went thru alot lately..and think maybe its time to stop evrything now and re-evaluate whatever stuff one is doing..and re-acess everything..one initially wanted to do it on birthday eve..but one decide not to thk bot it..now one knw that one gotta face it sometime and come to a consensus what one shall do with one's life..how long this process would take..not even one knows..one do knw that its finally time to say adios(goodbye in mexican) to the old one one was before coz one is longer an insensible young adult..its time to take show what hardship what one gone thru in the past that has shaped one to be..the real one..a real man..but 1 thing one wont change is one's love for new funky hairstyle..and one's sense of humour..adios to the one who once was 22..and usher in the real one...

veva la amigos=)

2005-05-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

dargged myself off the bed at 7am...coz will be meeting jan at 730am at jurong heading to houkang to pay some court soccer..haha was supposed to reach there at 8pm..but we reached there 830am..initially was rather upset to see hougang raining when we got off the mrt control stn..rang john ask him how..he said they maybe moving to else where..so me and jan decide to grab a mac breakfast to fill up our tummies 1st;p hehehe..but surprising heaven was kind to us 2 westies who took almost an hour to head north east just for our favourite game soccer kekeke..the rain stopped..there was 8 guys in all...jan had a good game scoring 8 goals of which 3 wewre headers..hes like 185 tall compare to me 172 the second tallest..kaoz..oh not forgetting this 188 tall mark..hahaha who dun dare to head..as for me?i scored 6 goals..of which one was from half court..a curler..and executed a few no look heel pass to my team mates which wowed the others;p haha thats my trade mark..jan even saw me scoring using my heeels in other games before..hahaha..this is me humiliating my opponents by scoring heel goals which never fails to catch the opponent by surprise..try 10 times 8 will definitely go in;p..but today i was more pleased with my through pass which created 5 goals..my shooting was horrendous..tried 10 times score only 6..thats like 60% accuracy only..thats was by far my worst record on court..i used to score like 8/9 goals out of 10 wheni was playing with my malay khakis who had far much superiors skill lor..sigh so sadz..but over all it was an enjoyable game..its kinda like a post birthday celebration for me..coz i get to play my favourite game..soccer is forever my xiao lao po;p kekeke..then later in noon head out to clementi with jianming to get some stuff for his plated tank and for me to do my calculations how much i need to save to set up a planted tank..its estimate to be>>>gravel 20,soil 20,lighting 40,chemicals remover 20,fertlisers and nitrogen liquid 20, carbon dioxide system electrical controlled 230,plants 40,fishes 30..wow thats like 420 bucks..but anyway i have whole half a yr to do so..so no hurry lar;p bleahs

23..the great ones shirt number(michael jordan)

2005-05-13T20:29:00.000+08:00

hahaha..23 liao ler..last night was the 1st time i got so many birthday sms ever before..thanks pals..you peeps gave me the best birthday gift in my whole life=)..thanks to my dajie mingli who send me a bd sms;p..thanks to shuzhen for the doggie bd gift..thanks to von for the birthday sms..thanks to xiuhui,huiwen,jas for the msn bd wish;p..thanks to sarah who never fails to remember my bd ;p thanks to eliza hope you get well soon then we go zara and clementi fish shop next week..thanks to my poly junior rumin(juming) for the bd sms and putting in effort to help me buy accessories from penang her hometown..thanks to junna who sms and rang me around 4 am this morning but i was long dead;pkekek..thanks to lauren who surprised me with her sms coz she had gone "missing" for one week;p hehehe truly surprised me alot lauren..thanks to lois and my old pal suling for their bd wish on my blog tagboard that was creative;p..tthanksto my cutie veena for ur morning sms;p kekeke you're forever so sweet..thansk to the 3 surprise i got from army camp thou i was on bd off today..sabes chng who bid me bd wish for the 3rd time..u go bro thanks alot..kelvin tan who rang me to remind me some army stuff and bidded me happy birthday.. and my army company clerk sebas who helped me alot by giving me gd slots for guard dutie;p..kekeke thanks to you all pals..you all truy made this 23rd birthday the most memorial for me..a special thanks to all of u from the bottom of my heart..

the house of wax....

2005-05-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

haha..today morning weather was so nice that i decided not to gp army today..anyway i been having bad stomach upsets since monday..keke so decide to report sick outside(rso in army terms)..so got mc today..thought can ask eliza out for lunch..but..sadly she got a fever..hope she recover soon..was so bored that after i went see doctor..went around the neighbourhood to see aquatic shops..keke saw one that got sell discus..initially wanted to buy this "watermelon" coloured discus..very chio lor..but..hey din my dad bought one at the fish farm last sunday when me dad and 2 uncle went fish hunting..thus decide not to buy liaoz..then later on me head to west mall to do window shopping..was stuck at watson for quite some time looking at facial products;p vain right..hahaha..i do admit i am lor..hahaha..finally book 6 of the death note (a comic) was just released..lucky me..hahaha..oh earlier i was lucky enuff to be able to have some of fatty's fried carrot cakes..he's the best in sg lor..went on tv b4..keke..its limited ..only breakfast time then got..;p..so my day arent that bad at all..around 6 plus..went to jurong entertainment to meet shuzhen for a movie..went to watch house of wax..hehehe..its damn gross and thrilling lor..not scary but its thrilling..shuzhen thanks alot for the cute lego doggie..so cute;p hehehe just like me...;p..seems like alot peeps are throwing up liao..1 hr 30 more min b4 my 23rd birthday..;p..wish myself a happy 23rd birthday..happy birthday to myself..

faltering knee with ankle included...

2005-05-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

hhmm..today was kinda busy day at camp..mdm insisted she wana finish the stock check today to clear what ever problem there may have before we do one final round to prepare for auditing..haha..had fun scaring mdm..occasonally count one less or more to scare mdm..hehehe..love teasing people ler..if not life be so boring..just mdm sitting down telling me the position of the spares while i just count..kekeke..got so tired that i just walked out of camp around 445pm but i did inform mdm i wana go home rest..hahaha..went home waited for my regulars to come online to chat with me..played my soccer managerial game for awhile..haha..oh..i've successfully added 5 kg within 5 mths ler..keke..unlike my fren winnie trying to lose 5 kg..hahaha..now the time to start train for my 6 pacs and up my basketball skills..soccer eh..hhmm..going to play with jan and his cousin at hard court this sat evening..yepeee..love playing hard ground..can do tons of tricks hehehe..gonna show them what i'm made of..coz i always play field soccer with them..cant really excel..hehehehe..watch it boys..;p..cant wait for sat..eh..should be cant wait for friday..my 23rd birthday hahaha...but like my bros testi for me..i'm a soccer lover..been playing since 8yr old..even if fren jio me go sengkang play(note:i stay bt batok) i'll definitely say yes without even thinking for a second..hahaha..but my left knee and ankle been hurting alot lately..and i'll pant just walking..die..gotta get my fitness back..gambateh!!!

as the star wars launch their assault...

2005-05-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

the star wars has officially launched their assault on me mike shak and my army fren toh...by poisoning the food we ate from our camps canteen chinese stall..2 days of continuous warfare..even with united poh zhi wans nations aid..it doesnt seems to help..2 launches from nited poh zhi wan nation aid to country mike shak failed terribly..arghz..my stomach hurting amidst this warfare going on in my stomach..
hope u peeps whose reading my blog had a gd laugh..hehehe...sighz..when is my tummy going to be okiez..oh juming sorry for ringing u late last nite..;p..keke wonder what accesories u chosed for me..anyway thanks alot for helping me to buy;p...today weather rather great..chilling thru out the whole day..oh..my "da jie" (my poly classmate,24 of age) just found her new man;p..he's 41..jie u must jia you..faster coax him into marriage before he..hehehe u know what i mean;p bleah..so happy to see all my frens happily in love..some married with a newborn child..some getting married..some engaged..some planning..some like me still in search for the one...but i know at the end of day all shall be happily married to their beloved ones..i shall wait for my snow white to appear in this modern city..right here waiting for you!!!

the hero has fallen..for the moment...

2005-05-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

today was quite a good day for me thou its monday..nut i got the worst news from staff koh my csm..he told me that rsm warren richard told him that i was kicked out of the SAF day marching contingent..it was a great blow to me..thought at least in my army testimonial there would be a participated in SAF day marching contingent representing MES..and get my well deserved off days..now all smashed..i only missed out one practise last week coz of illness..felt like 1998..when my npcc unit was the guard of honour for singapore youth day..all becoz of o levels..i decided to miss just one practise session to attend to tutorials..but my officer in charge wanted to sack me..it felt identical..a terrible blow to me..to think back 1997 when we just got into sec 3..even b4 we got our appointment in npcc..i was selected to be the commander for the sec 2 squad for our school speech day for the marching competition..i was thrilled..but all becoz of a wrong comman during the u turn that cost us the championship..from there on..i was officially made the head in charge for the sec 2 squad and was made the committee for promotion board..it was my greatest achivevement..we worked hard during sec 3 and earned our unit and school 4 th in grading for npcc in the whole of singapore..gold award=)..needless to say i also got the 1st class drill badge and was the 1st in standard..=)..will never forget those days..ok thk i'll stop here..enuff of remiscenting..time to look forward to tomorrow..i gotta retunr to kranji camp to collect my SBO..its where we practise for our SAF day..2moro i know there wud be andrew who'll mock at me for being chao keng..a sad day for me 2mr..

under the sea..

2005-05-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

haha..dun get me wrong..i din go under the sea..i went into the aquarium shop and fishy farm;p..woke up around 1030a, by my 2 uncles calling for my dad who is in the toilet;p..keke when my 2nd uncle told me they going fish farm..without even thinking i got changed and joined them;p kekeke..then we headed to pasir ris fish farm..went to one farm to buy crickets..you wont beliebe the amount of fish tank they used to house the crickets..almost 50 3 feet fish tanks ..woah..uncle bought them for their arowana..my uncles arowana cost up to 3000 per piece eh..so ex..then we headed to another farm to see fish..haha..saw this pigeon red discus..dada bought it at 18 bucks..quite cheap..then saw the leopard spot discus goingfor 48 which i bought at 25..mine is even nicer than theirs..kekeke..bargain right..frens if u wana buy fish go the one at clementi interchange there..its cheaper than fish farm eh;p..then we head to yelok ayu to eat prata..ate this special egg prata with garlic..yum yum ..taste great..kekeke..then head to serangoon to buy fish equipment..then saw this baby tiger fish which can grow up to 30 cm long or even longer..its barely 3cm long..selling at 10 bucks..my 1st uncle bargain till 8 bucks..haha he sure can bargain man..saw one 5cm tiger fish selling at 68 bucks eh..never knew this fish could fetch such high price..haha..the end of my fishy trip with dada and 2 uncles;p..all 4 greart lovers of fishy..come to think of it yesterday went night safari and today went fish hunting..haha what a weekend of animal viewing..keke what more can i ask for..i'm an absolute animal lover;p

1st trip to night safari...

2005-05-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

thanks alot suling and boyfren;p thanks for the dinner treat and the night safari treat;p..keke we went to bt timah wet market eat satay beehon..the one which my poly fren jan's family open one..always long queue one hahaha..not knowing where to head to after meal..we decided on night safari..keke me n suling bf never been to b4...an eye opener to the both of us;p kekeke
we decided to be on foot of tram..saw deers..wild boars..leopard..wild cat..hyenas..crocodile..then we come to this cross intersection..to our left is a road for tram..to our right..is a path thats so misty that we cant see anything..wooo..it scare suling so bad that i need to be on her left before she'll walk across;p hehehe..saw porcupines..fruit bats..flying squirrels..giraffe..tiger..saw the grizzly bears..and guess what..saw this porcupine trying to bully the 2 grizzly bears..using its "hairs" to poke the 2 poor bears;p hahaha what a scene it was..a jungle fight..imagine how malu it was for the 2 bears being bullied by a porcupine;p hahaha..and guess the highlight of night safari..4 dollar for a 500ml coke kaoz..in the end we drive to marsailing mrt buy drinks and chocolate;p hehehe..and yeah there're quite alot of japanese babes;p kekeke..thanks alot for the birthday treat suling and boyfriend =)

fearless warrior!!!

2005-05-07T12:42:00.000+08:00

i won the battle..i fear you no more..to hell back you belong evil one...i fear no spirits no more..come they may..i fear none of you no more!!!congratulate me frens i beaten my phobic..she's gone forvever..to hell you burn..great grandma..get ur ass back to hell and burn!!!
a braver and fearless me is reborn..now i fear nothing except the lord i adore..thanks for letting me face my greatest fear..now i beaten it..i'm ready for the new transition my lord..i am the fearless one..its a battle i won hand down..no fight at all..hahahaha..no more phobia..no fear no nothing no more..YESH!!!

a dying man...

2005-05-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

i went thru hell last night..saw "her" again..the old lady who tormented me when i was a baby..the old lady who when she passed away wanted to drag me to hell with her..thats lke when i was 8 years old..i nearly died becoz of her..shes aa wicked old lady..and shes my great grandma..my mother side one..i dreamt that shes back..and she want to kill me..afterall these years she still haunts me..never got so freak out before..when i wook up i was scared that i din even dare to move..damn...is my time coming???now i know how it feels to be hell and back..now i know how it feels on the brink of death..why she still haunts me..damn..i'm going to be 23 soon..going to "fight" back..its my life..no fear..no fear..frens..if it so happen that i cant make it..treat this part of my blog as my will..please donate all my organs to whoever needs it..and all my belongings to salvation army..and frens be strong and stay happy..remember i'm always supporting you..all the best..

nutty nuts;p

2005-05-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

today i was nutty in camp..keep giving mdm the wrong figures while doing stock take..did that on pruspose;p keke coz i knw mdm sure kan jiong one hahaha...today was damn busy in camp..doing stock take virtually the whole day and issuing of weapon spares..phew..keke junna sms asking me to go orchard with her to pcik clothes from topshop for her boy boy;p haha well why not..keke got her to treat me hans for dinner as my birthday gift;p help her save money;p..went to far east..keke thou not many peeps but still got many babes wooooooooo;p hehehehehe..then went to wisma atria topshop to look for polo t's..well she choose 3 piece and i was the model to try it on;p...in the end choose 2 out of the 3..then buy only one coz the other no M size..so sadz..i even had to suffer sharp pokes by the stupid tag on the polo t..kaoz..then bought one only..keke saw eveleen but she dunnoe its me;p hehehe...well..then we head to taka to look for 1 more polo t coz she bought a t-short from topshop..she wana get a polo t..went to zara..my 1st time there;p kaoz 89.9 for a polo t made in china..its nuts man..i saw this long sleeve shirt with luminous green strips with white backgournd..cool shirt..may go get it for my bd..sadz right..wat to do..thk this year bd i celebrate alone liaoz..hahaha its alright..everybody's busy with their own stuff..and now i down with a cold..sadz..

humpty dumpty took a wrong route...

2005-05-03T19:52:00.000+08:00

today 1st pratice for SAF day marching contingent at alti kranji camp..arrived at cck way at 8am..walk thk 800m to the gate of kraji camp..kaoz..its locked..gotta use other entrance..went to the provos guard room and asked for directions..continued my journey..finally found the main gate after thk 1km's walk..was bot to book in when the guard told me its further up..kaoz not again..then walked another 1.4km b4 i reach my destination..reach the camp around 830am..kaoz..damn garbra today..walked 3.2km..kaoz..was tired out b4 the prctice even began..
haha saw melvyn my secndary school mate at the canteen..was at the same course camp at ayer raja with him..we both same ord date;p..keke 20th december 2005!!!5 more mth b4 i clear leave and off;p yepee..juming my poly junior..shes a very crappy and full of nonsense girl who'll be a handsome guy if she is a him;p..but just as pretty with her eyes and long lashes..got a very sweet smile..always like to scold her pig head thou shes a tigress hahaha..always love to crap with her every night before she sleeps;p...going to see her soon come 19th may..during the freshman orientation program at ngee ann poly;p..my last time taking freshie..took 3 batch liaoz..already got people call me lao jiao liao lor..next yr go back dunnoe wat they gonna call me;p hahaha..gonna make this welcome to ngee ann thingy a BANG coz my last batch..make it like my ord pre celebration;p..and also theres the mix and splash camp during the ghost festive period..and that gonna be my ord camp;p kekeke..this year BE events is the last time i'll be joining..going to effectively end my affections for BE events..thou cant bear to..but life gotta move on..getting bit old for poly stuff liaoz..imagine me playing with 1988 batch peeps..its like a 23 playing with 17 or 16 yr old peeps..kaoz..makes me look so childish;p..hope to join the fun next year with university peeps..time for me to move one up..going to miss poly events i enjoyed thru my poly times to my army times..its been a long 5 year journey..seeing 2 batch graduate..dont time flies..missing you fellas always..hope you all are doing well..hope to bump into u fella on street some day..so till then pals..

have i changed or have i matured???

2005-05-01T19:30:00.000+08:00

things that used to entice me no longer entices me anymore..used to love to play com games..but nw find it boring...needless to say bot arcade..never like playing..not now not b4...soccer???haha losing interest in playing the game too...now just want to get out of army asap...maybe next year work full time and study part time...then learn driving and buy a 2nd hand car;p keke..if only lar..just wana get a degree quick then enter the working world;p time to show world wad i'm made of..a new prodigy in the business world..its more challenging striving it out with the other businessman then to play those foolish arcade or comp games;p..cant wait to rub shoulders with those big players...but i do need that precarious exprience from elders who retired from the business world to allow me to "grow" up in a shorter period of time to be on par with those already out in the business world..its just like the survivor competition..out last..out wit...out play..isnt it challenging..there's not much of rest time at all..everyday you're plotting each others downfall..bring it on..

life full of surprises....

2005-04-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

the schedules out for my SAF day marchimg pratice..sighz..its like twice a week..every tuesday n thursday..and gotta wear the full leather boots..wonder if my injured left ankle can take it sighz..nothing much to look 4ward to...hope there'll be more surprises..good ones i mean..haha just 5 more months and i'll be thru and done with army;p yeha...especially love the 2nd half of the year coz time passes faster..keke..hope the special one will appear on my birthday..its may 13..anyone remembers???hahaha

disaster.........

2005-04-24T21:56:00.000+08:00

how unfortunate it could get for me...yesterday just got the letter of rejection from nus..sighz..how unlucky i've been lately..rejection after rejection...it truly sucks BIG TIME for me...arghz...cant take it lehz...why me..i wasted 1 yr plus b4 i could enter poly becoz family problems..now i gonna waste another 7 mths..arghz..why is my life full of obstacles..its never smooth sailing for me..so unfair...arghz...damn it...arghz...i dun believe my life so damned...even if i have to go against god's will i'll do so...no one can stop me at my tracks..try as they may at their own peril...enough is enough..no more mr nice guy..damn those who steps on my fin...so enemies BEWARE..the shark is gonna BITE u HARD...frens fear not..i'll stand up for you...dunnoe wad i should do next..now just gonna save up buy new hp..then save up plan year end ord oversea trip vacation..anyone interested???do tag and let me know if ya interested;p..keke..its the only thing i can look forward this year..pathetic right..sighz...

mobilisation today!!!!

2005-04-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

was happily yakking away with junna till 12 plus when suddenly my rsm called and asked shouldnt i be reporting to camp at 12 noon..wad the...arghz..nobody told me bot it..that means kana activation liao lor..quickly get changed and rushed to camp..kaoz..waste my ten bucks..bot bought some useful tips when i ord from army..the taxi uncle told me its alright not to go for ippt test..kekeke but the ict i definitely gotta go..7 times in 10 year..3 weeks per call up..thats long...the activation started at 2pm..tv flashed the wordings..short day is mine;p..and thk radio also got air ba...go there scan in..proceed to next counter get sticker which indicates ur unit..mine was 2fmc thats gonna be like my reservist unit;p..then head to field pack inspection..once done..the end..you may go home..but becoz i'm the road marshaller i gotta stay back and man the main camp..arghz..
settled the issue between me and junna..von was right..wad i'm doing is torturing myself..truly wish her all the best..=) junna you'll always be my special fren...=)
the whole mobby thingy ended around 9pm..kaoz..was manning the main gate from 2 plus all the way to 8 pm lor..so torturing..one event down..another to come soon..its the saf day..i'm arrowed to be part of the marching contingent..arghz..and most prob also the national day parade wah kaoz..why have i been so down on luck lately..so unlucky..sighz..wad a sad life i'm leading..year 2005 definitely the worst year ever in my life..always kana arrow one..sianz..not doing well in department of love..think not getting in nus..coz till today haven get the letter..losing hope..

expect the unexpected in life..

2005-04-15T20:04:00.000+08:00

last night was one of the worst night i ever had for this year..felt terribly upset and hurting alot..thought i wont feel so pain but its really very very pain..the love was within my grasp but becoz of something that i told junna that effectively ended everything..she's now in the arm of mr ace..hahaha..its me myself who killed myself..cant believe it..ah mei von..thanks for consoling me last night..ur really a great wise mei mei i ever have..thanks..junna..do you know all this while i've been treating you like how i treat my last gf veena..thats the reason why that i'm always very quick to pick up ur call..you are someone i cherish alot alot and adore alot..always putting your interest before mine..it hurt so much coz it felt like a break up to me..thou we never got together..but..sobs..right now feeling so empty..through junna that i've realised that i matured alot alot..slowly building up my character and bravery to face the world..junna said that if things dont work out between she n mr ace she'll come to me..was extremely delighted to hear that..really lift my spirits up alot..but i hope this day wont come coz i dun wish to see her cry or hurt no more..hope mr ace would treat her well..junna always remember this..i'm always close by you k =)..junna u must jia you in your love life worz..dun bow to failures..instead be a rubberball..the harder you hit the ground..the harder you should bounce back;p get it???oh not forgetting xiaomei von whos name incidently is also yvonne..keke thk last night after reading my blog she thick skinnedly tot it was her..aiyo... ah mei dont think too much k..you n ur dar can pull thru one..time will tell..trust me..you got a great guy in ur dar who's so ever patient..and understanding..so as for me???hahahaha
right now..only looking forward to receive my fate from nus..be there for junna every time..and try do some soul searching to see if there's still any flaws in me and correct it asap so that my the one would get the best from me..;p..i'm right here waiting for you..

a messy love life...

2005-04-14T19:53:00.000+08:00

>>>the sweety's name is junna...she's a sweet angel with a kind heart who teaches autistic kids...she's someone special..a girl with strong character..great cheerful personality..one who never fails to smile even if things gets tough for her..truth is i fell for her..she fell for me too..how things will go on from here i dont know..i truly wish to take care of her..stand by her side giving her moral support and encouragement..but at times things do not always go the way i wish it would be.....gotta face up to reality..maybe me and her can only be friends..
>>>hahaha my junior jiali recently sms asking if my ex name was yvonne tan(the girl who hurt my feelings the most..she din two time me or what lar..but i really loved her alot..she's my poly junior)..i was like..oh oh dun tell me jiali and yvonne same company..this is shitty..haha how small this world is..hahaha..chatted with poly fren veron last night..very happy to hear her happily engaged to her fiance=)..she was once like me a lost spirit in the world of love..now she has finally found her final destination..very happy for her..rang da jie mingli..keke heard from her got a 41 year old fella wooing her..she seems to like him too..by the way my da jie is 24 this year..and theres this guy 1 year older then her studying same course as her hinting her out also..;p wow my da jie have tons of suitors le..so da jie dont need to worry bot not being able to get married liao le..kekeke..
>>>veena a girl who'll always has a special place in my heart..she rang this evening after she knocked off from work..very happy to hear from her again..happy that she's doing well..keke she's getting "heavier" le..doing bit of office work..trying hard not to doze off..kekeke she complained to me how boring the office job was..thus she decide to munch some food to keep herself awake..and guessed what she's using 7610 a phone i always wanted..so envious..

a hero bleeding in his heart...

2005-04-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for some time..been thru hell and back..losing hope with each passing day..quite few of my frens has got the golden letter from nus..except me..what should i do..how am i gonna survive till december in army camp..im being "abused" in camp..hiaz..this week is the mob manning week..hope they wont activate us..
highlight???got to know this cute girl thru frenster..haha guess what she's my 1st gf classmate..and on 5 other occassion i could have got to know her but missed her by just this little bit..sort of lije turn left turn right that chinese movie..hehehe..fate had played this trick on me and her for 6 years le..wow..cant believe such thing happen in real life man;p kekeke..she never fail to bring out the smile for me and so much laughter while being with her..no other girl have ever brought me so much happiness..i truely enjoy every moment around you..

beginning of an end...

2005-04-07T21:08:00.000+08:00

today morning started terribly..mdm told me off the very early morning for not reporting to her bot my 1 day mc yesterday..but i did sms several people to help inform her..i cant blame others its my fault..then she chided me for not helping "her man" do stuff and sign documents..haiz someone been stabbing my back lately..shes clearly draing the line clearly that i arent "her man"..but i know she said that in a moment of anger..i didnt blame her for that.. its true i've been slacking in store not helping much..thus i decide to show my worth..to show my "true" self;p..keke been hiding my real me away since being "downgraded" from the workshop to store..;p bleahz..then my csm called me into his room demanding me to explain why i'm late today..but as yesterday i was on mc..i didnt know i gotta fall in early as there's a ;ife run today..me n several other guys got deducted whatever off we have earned..sad for my pals coz got 1 fella took 2 years to get 12 day off all gone k=just becoz of being late for 1 time..thats how unfair it is in army..all it takes is just one mistake to take away all your credits earned..today my little bro gunbound's last day as he'll be flying over to brunei for oversea attchement for 1 year tomorrow 130am..gonna miss this ever cheerful dude..mr tony lee..my former section i.c...he's been extremely nice to me lately..dunnoe why..he knew that i've run out of money thus he willing offered to loan me money..and insist i pay him when pay day..feel so weird..initially when i knew him he was a very solemn and unfriendly fella..as last year when i try to chat with him..he sort of ignored me..woa kaoz..but since returning to nee soon camp this year..my opinion of him changed 360 degree..he's very much like my idol uncle warren chiok..A LEADER WHO'LL PROTECT HIS MAN AT ALL COST..a true leader indeed..but its bit too early to pass such judgement on him just becoz he loaned me 30 bucks..dunooe what he's up to...hahaha..thanks for cheering me up this morning sweety..life been sweeter since your arrival into my life..hope you'll stay for a long a long time...;p hehehe